My perp has been dead for 6-1/2 years. Yet, I still wonder what I would do if he was alive.
Partly because I want to process those feelings. Partly because I deal with abused kids & I want to be able to help them when they are faced with that situation. How could I if I dont face it myself.
I think that, what I would do, would depend on where I am in my Healing. 5 years ago, I would have killed him. That, as scary as it is, is the simple truth. 2 years ago, I may have only hurt him, or perhaps thrown a bucket of shit on him.
Today...its harder to answer. I think I wouldn't be as close to my family as I am.
I am so impressed by the strength of those here, that SEE their perps. To live near them & be able to "carry on" with life. The more I write this, the more I feel that I wouldnt be so strong. It's probly a good thing for me he's dead.
They will not Give you peace, you must find it yourself, you have the power within you, but you are not alone, We will find it together. -Blacken