Well I think it is my memories. I mean sometimes I can call up a memory, but the sting of that memory is gone. It does not have that pain associated with it that it used to. Some memories had so much sting to them I surpressed them whenever they sought to resurface. I just could not face them. Now, and there are several, when they pop up I no longer mentally flinch at them. They are there, part of my life and while it saddens me to recall them for many reasons, I feel no need to run from them.
Not only the venom but the teeth have been removed from them. I feel them gnawing at my conciousness but they are impotent and cause no harm or hurt. Just regret, perhaps remorse but nothing that would send me to some unhealthy coping mechanism.
I hope that explains it.
Edited by Freedom49 (06/22/10 09:51 AM)