Builders, i am trying take my life back, some days it feels like i am healed and some days, it feels like i am getting worst. But yes, i will never give up and try always to improve myself, i deserve this
Kidneythis, Thank you very much for asking me this question. It lead me to seek an answer and i found something new about myself.
it just hit me that i have a belief that when somebody joke with me and teases me. I believe they do that because they want to control me and empower me and muniplate me to have power over me. it is not a playfull agenda behind that, in my belief it is like by joking and teaseing they want to empower me and manuiplate me. wow, i dont know where it comes from but it feels really like when people joke with me, they are judging me, ciritisizing me, finding fault with me, want to make me look weak, making fun of me, i beilieve it is everything but not that she do that because she likes me or she want me have fun..really distorted thinking. it is a lot of more i guess, but this is what comes in my mind right now