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#333996 - 06/17/10 06:27 PM No more guilt no more pain im a survivor
james 1959 Offline


Registered: 02/17/10
Posts: 287
Six months of 2010 has almost past when i look back over the months of my recovery during that time ive come along way from the man i used to be.

Im more confident now within my self. One thing that i have gained is that i have more respect for myself or who i was over the years. Im not ashamed of my childhood my youth or my manhood years to this point in my life. Im not ashamed of my thoughts and feeling over the years, im not ashamed of who i am to day. idnt feel one bit of guilt or shame anymore.

whats the diffrence now, ive been honest with my self and the ones i love ive been open and honest with you guys in here and i feel i have reaped the rewards of having peace in my life but i also understand myself more and my life to date.

It was never my fault in the first place so im not to blame.

Who should feel guilty now not me but them. who should be tortured to their grave not me but them.

I have a clear mind a smile on my face i can look myself straight in the mirror and most of all i know who i am.

Im content with my self and im not in torture any more

Im proud of what i have achieved over the last six months.
Why should i not be ive been trought enought.

Whos the brave boy/man now me not them.

My name is James im a fighter and survivor



Edited by james 1959 (06/17/10 06:29 PM)
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#334004 - 06/17/10 07:52 PM Re: No more guilt no more pain im a survivor [Re: james 1959]
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Hi, my brother, james.

My congratulations to you.

Confident in yourself, Respect for yourself. No longer ashamed of your childhood.

Yes, my brother, you have come a long way in 6 months. Something to be darn proud of.

I, wish you continuous, success, on your trip to becoming a complete survivor.

Heal well, my brother, james, heal well.

Pete..Irishmoose.

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#334015 - 06/17/10 08:24 PM Re: No more guilt no more pain im a survivor [Re: petercorbett]
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Good post James, you should be proud, i think tackling this is probably one of the biggest challenges anybody can face. Not blaming yourself and not feeling ashamed is a hell of a difficult thing.

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#334669 - 06/26/10 12:54 AM Re: No more guilt no more pain im a survivor [Re: king tut]
james 1959 Offline


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thanks for your comments its helps me to get even more stronger

James

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