I agree, Ryan. If it doesn't interfere with your current relationship, there is no reason it should trouble you. Sexuality is more malleable than society would have us believe. It might be the stigma of being gay, more than anything, that stops the average straight men from experimentating. I understand your insecurities. But just because something is pleasurable, it doesn't mean you have to do it, especially if the alternative better suits you. And take it from me, if you ever did decide to pursue a relationship with a man, it would open up a whole new can of worms. You might have problems with trust, with guilt, with shame, with falling into patterns established by the abuse. Like me, you could end up waffling back and forth between gay, straight and bisexual, confusing yourself and everyone around you. I envy your happiness. Appreciate it and don't put yourself down because circumstances made you lose certain inhibitions. It'll only become a problem if you let it get to you.