If the things you post here are any indication--and they are--then you IMNSHO have a lot to offer to a relationship.
It's just a thot, but maybe you're not looking for enuf to be offered to you in a relationship, my friend. Perhaps you are selling yourself short, and allowing people to short-change you.
At least, I know I for most of my life have done that as a survivor, and I know some others do too.
Mark, we may present some unique problems to people & relationships (doesn't everybody?), but we also present some unique perspectives & blessings & gifts. And I know you do, even right here on this board.
Believe more & better for yourself brother. You can do it, and you are worth it!
"I can't stand pain. It hurts me."