Well, my back pain is gone now fortunately, I think it was just from falling asleep on my settee which was pretty stupid, ---- especially as the only reason for it is I like to read before I sleep and sinse I'm currently reading audio books off my desktop which is in my living room, ---- well yes, pretty stupid, ---- especially when I have a perfectly working laptop.

I've now actually made sure I go to sleep in bed, ---- which will help.

I think the absolute worst image I get in my dreams, ---- even worse than the s/xual stuff, is darkness.

On rare occasions I'll just be somewhere normal, and look at a dark object, ---- say a speaker, and a wave of fear suddenly hits me, ---- well fear isn't strong enough, more panic!

I can't say what it is, it's just absolute terror to the point where I wake up trying to scream.

On the occasions I get this sort of image following several more desturbing s/xual ones, ---- well it's bad!

Again I realized this is another thing I use mb for, sinse if I mb, and get rid of those reactions my own way, ---- well I won't have dreams.

Back when I was 20, I tried giving up mb entirely. this worked only because at the time if I had s/xual dreams they weren't quite as umplesant, --- -in fact I'd describe them as romantic, and about love, rather than graffical s/xual.

Darkness scares me too, although I'm attracted to it at the same time because of its nothingness, if this makes any sense. JS

I awoke from a dream last night enraged. I was so pissed. my heart was racing and I was soaked with sweat. That had never happened to me before but I took advice from this thead, centered myself, made myself aware that it was just a dream and went back to sleep. Unheard of for me. thanks guys.