Buddy, you're headed up a tough hill and nobody but you can get you to the top. The good news is that once you're up there, you'll like the view and (I hope) find that the arduous climb was well worth the results. I'm sending you wishes for willpower, endurance, insight, courage, and caring support. I will also hold you in my thoughts -- please, please, please let us know how you're doing whenever you feel like it. You're among the best of the best, Adam, and you deserve to succeed with this. Really and truly.
Take for us the foxes, the little foxes that spoil the vineyards; for our vines have tender grapes. Song of Solomon 2:15
But let justice roll down as waters, and righteousness as a mighty stream. Amos 5:24