Pain, death’s sting
Is what every day will bring
A day without end, without pain.
A day without victory or any gain.
Far far away, never near by
Is life, but bit by bit I will die
Just out of my reach, far away
Far where forever it will stay.
Peter, peter, Pumpkin eater
Had a life but could not keep her.
Let her go, gave her away
Now alone he will be forever and a day.
Peter, peter liveless eater
Had the joy but could not feed her.
Peter peter, fearless leader
Had peace as a friend but could not meet her.
So Peter peter joyless Peter,
Where is the jail that you will keep her?
God, why do we have to feel this way
Where is the joy and peace that is supposed to stay?
Where is Your face, Your presence, Your life?
All I feel is the cutting of this knife.
That cuts me up in pieces, never letting go
What is so terrible that I sow?
Why am I reaping this hell I am living in?
What have I done, where have I been?
Slowly the blood flows from my soul
Tearing me apart but never making me whole.
Perfect life, life without pain
Is the life I want, but cannot gain.
Here, there, everywhere
I am ripped to pieces, tear by tear.
Until only the pieces are left of the man I was
The set alight by this terrible feeling that will not pass.
Darkness, lifeless, corpse that lives but is dead
Feeling love that will not spread.
Knowing life, knowing God
Gaining what life’s experiences bought.
Lifeless eyes staring into the dark
Hearing nothing but the horrific bark
Of the pain giving past
The pain that will be your companion and forever last.
Not Perfect, just forgiven