Here I am a year later and still alive. I tried to kill myself. I forgive myself due to the fact that I have been forgiven and its not my job to punish or judge anyone. Jesus died so I can live. My wife has forgiven me. I have been going to couseling for a year now. What led to this? Adults using children for their sexual pleasure. I have to be forgiving but not forgetting. I choose to let go of the neck of the people that hurt me. It wasnt easy, but its alot to carry around everyday. I was molested at 7 and later. It led to alot of bad decisions like who I would have sex with while drunk or on drugs. I must have married an angel to have her with me still. My wife is so much more supportive than anyone I have ever met. More to follow.