Well, it has been said that an alcoholic must decide every day not to drink. My wife expresses the hope that once I am done dealing with my CSA, I will no longer be attracted to males. I told her that although God CAN do anything, there are many things He, for whatever reason, does NOT do. One of these is suddenly changing this part of me. I know you may not want to hear this, I know I don't, but some things we do have to learn to live with. Some people have to learn to live without walking, talking, seeing or even being able to move freely. I am not saying "just be a man and get over it" because I know it is definitely not that easy. But I am encouraged that you are seeking answers and asking questions. This is a good sign that you will be able to effectively deal with your issues. It is written, seek and ye shall find, knock and the door shall be opened for you.
God grant me
The Serenity to accept the things I cannot change,
The Courage to change the things I can,
And the Wisdom to know the difference.