Yes, just another bad point again, nothing to worry about.
I should've known when I cried at watching doctor who yesterday that I was heading for more feelings like these.
Just me again, another evening with worthlessness when I try to destract myself from grey feelings inside again. I'll write a poem soon, cry a bit more, listen to some music, maybe sit out on my balcony and watch the dawn sky in a few hours at five in the morning, ---- but that doesn't change anything, it never does, it's just a way of keeping going.
In an episode of being human a while ago, a person, --- actually a vampire, said he could change if he had someone to change for, someone who believed in him and that he was better than his nature.
Well, ---- I feel the same thing. if someone could just show me there's something more to experience, something more to live for, something more to find betwene me and others.
But nobody does, or will.
people give me complements that i don't feel, point at achievements that I don't believe in or attempt to tell me how young I am and how much else there is out there, ---- but nobody can show me, --- it's just me and my worthlessness, andoh look, I'm whining again, ---- pathetic isn't it.
I'm sure some kind person around here will pass me a complement or two as usual, ---- shame I can't feel it.
maybe it'll get me through until the next time anyway, as usual, ---- same old circle.