The biggest lie of them all:

"I love you."

How many times did the motherfucker say this, I don't know, but one thing is sure - he NEVER fucking loved me!

Scot

Lie...'You haven't progressed'.

Bullshit. Every day we awaken, we progress. Every day we live, we learn. Every day we survive, we become stronger. Learning, strength, that is progress.

Leosha

For the lies I may be the most pissed off. They have played in my head but I had never listened to them before. I had the courage to listen to them all the way, and that's when I heard his voice. Damn him to hell!!

"you're gay, you're such a faggot, stop crying you little girl..."

"if you tell your mom and dad they will be crushed that your such a faggot doing faggot things"

The sick f****** bastard. If he weren't already dead I'd make him hurt and make him hurt bad. I am stronger than him, sh** he's a f****** coward. He can no longer say those things in my head - or at least I'll know they are his.

all lies


If you can't remember it is not important.
I am protecting you from your father.
I know what is best for you.
Everything is your fathers fault.
You are learning disabled.
You are my favorite.


Now that they are shared they have lost thier power.
Jonathan

My first post here. Thanks for this thread.

THIS IS A LIE:
It's just something that happened to me. But, it didn't affect me.

THIS IS A LIE:
"You're FAGGOT."

THIS IS A LIE:
If I tell her, she won't leave me.

THIS IS A LIE:
"You're gay. Just admit it and then learn to be happy with your life. I need to find a real man to love me."

THIS IS A LIE:
I've beaten this SA. I've acknowledged it. It's part of me...and I'm cured.

Thank you all for your courage here.
Space

Wow, this is an amazing idea. It is very helpful just reading the lies posted by everyone. I have not finished reading them all yet, and most lies have been covered already. So I will post the biggest most harmful lie that I keep telling to myself.

THIS IS A LIE!!!

You are alien, you are different, you don't fit in, and don't belong here.

How about this one I have to live with today:


A MALE CAN NOT BE SEDUCED/MOLESTED/RAPED BY A FEMALE. MALES ARE ALWAYS PERPETRATORS AND FEMALES ARE ALWAYS VICTIMS. IT IS ALWAYS THE MALES INSTINCTIVE SINFUL FAULT REGARDLESS IF HE IS 3 YEARS OLD.

Come to the Southern Baptist Convention capitol of Nashville, Tennesssee, and let me see anyone get another person to publically say this isn't true, at this very day in time.

Tom S. in Tn.

Lies I told myself (I didn't even NEED prompting!):

At the time the abuse began:

Because I may be gay, this is not sexual abuse (completely disregarding the vast age difference).

After years of acting out - sexually and with drugs:

If ANYone deserves AIDS, I do.

(This is/was such a lie on many levels. As if ANYone deserves AIDS. And as if, because I acted out as an adult, I deserved it more!)

I put it all back on my first perps.

Kenn

One day you will understand what it is like.

I could never hurt you.

I did the best I could with what I had.


Jonathan

My parents lies/ MY UN-LIES.

you should never ask questions
I SHOULD ASK QUESTIONS ALL THE TIME

if you talk to anyone about anything in the family the finger of god will strike you dead
IF I TALKED I MIGHT GET HELPED NOT KILLED

we really love you and we want what's best for you
YOU OBVIOUSLY DO NOT EVEN KNOW WHAT LOVE IS

this will hurt me more than it hurts you
WRONG IT WILL STING YOU A BIT AND HURT ME A LOT

grandma went to heaven today
LIAR YOU DO NOT EVEN BELIEVE IN HEAVEN

jesus told me to do it
YOU DECIDED TO DO IT YOURSELF

you are stupid
I AM INCREDIBLY SMART

we are going to teach you a lesson
NO YOU ARE GOING TO HIT ME A LOT