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#316419 - 12/26/09 11:35 AM What song sings your life??
MADcHATTER Offline


Registered: 11/30/09
Posts: 30
Loc: Tennessee
I know everyone has a favorite song, one that they relate to or that describes their life, pain, joy or abuse. For me the song "Thee Unforgiven" by Metallica was like someone wrote my life into a song. I always felt growing up that no one could understand me, no one tried or no one cared and that I had only myself. Nothing I could do would make a difference no matter how hard I tried. The chorus of the song always hits me right in the gut and how I reacted to those who were supposed to love me. This would have been the song I'd have wrote for myself!

What I've felt, what I've known
never shined through in what I've shown
Never be, never see
wont see what might have been...
What I've felt, what I've known
never shined through in what I've shown
Never free, never me...
so I dub Thee Unforgiven!

Perhaps one day I'll find a song of redemption and forgiveness that speaks to the part of my life i'm in now. But for now I just listen...

Another song that just rips me is "Down with the Sickness - Uncut" by Disturbed. It's just another song that goes to the heart of my abuse and the subsequent anger and hate I felt. Especially the part where he's fighting back against his abusive mother. Man talk about living the lyrics!



Edited by MADcHATTER (12/26/09 01:33 PM)
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#316426 - 12/26/09 12:23 PM Re: What song sings your life?? [Re: MADcHATTER]
boylikeme Offline


Registered: 08/10/09
Posts: 546
Loc: hell
pretty much everything by Linkin Park and Simple Plan...

and this song for a reason I cant explain


Is this all too familiar?
Does it happen all the time?
I'm just asking you to hear me
Could you please, just once, just hear me?
More than anything you wanted to be right
Still it's you, you,
It's you I can't deny


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Everybody’s screaming - I try to make a sound but no one hears me (Untitled - Simple Plan)

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#316432 - 12/26/09 01:00 PM Re: What song sings your life?? [Re: boylikeme]
DJsport Offline
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MaleSurvivor

Registered: 02/20/08
Posts: 1742
Hi, Madchatter.

I have a couple "recovery" favorites - but my all time favorite is Elton John and this one in particular - "I'm still standing"

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dq2uAUjkLIw

I did not understand what the message of the song ment to me at the time. I do now.

Great post.

DJ

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Never make someone a priority if your only an option

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#316437 - 12/26/09 01:31 PM Re: What song sings your life?? [Re: DJsport]
catfish86 Offline
Member
MaleSurvivor

Registered: 10/27/09
Posts: 820
Loc: Ohio
I take meaning from a lot of songs. Two recent ones with respect to my own abuse are "Behind Blue Eyes" written by Peter Townsend and "Hotel California" by the Eagle. I have brown eyes, but the song describes how nobody can really know the hell behind my eyes. They don't even know they hate me but it feels like they do. It could also describe an abuser, but I take it as dealing with my depression and feelings of worthlessness stemming from the abuse. “to be hated, to be fated to telling only lies”, not letting pain show through. The loneliness, my love is always tainted. It also captures how in spite of all the ugliness hidden, my dreams are not empty. I want a family and I want to be a father and husband to them, providing all. I am doing well at this but there are times in it all I just want to sit and cry, but I have to be this strong, all knowing businessman who is never at a loss. Some of the rest, “if I swallow anything evil, put your finger down my throat” and “if I shiver please give me a blanket” describes how I really need to be taken care of… http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=42U8FeLp_y4&feature=related
Pete Townsend’s version is much better than The Who
Written by Pete Townshend

No one knows what it's like to be the bad man
To be the sad man behind blue eyes
No one knows what it's like
To be hated, to be fated to telling only lies

But my dreams, they aren't as empty
As my conscience seems to be
I have hours, only lonely
My love is vengeance that's never free

No one knows what it's like
To feel these feelings like I do and I blame you!
No one bites back as hard on their anger
None of my pain and woe can show through

But my dreams, they aren't as empty
As my conscience seems to be
I have hours only lonely
My love is vengeance, that's never free

When my fist clenches, crack it open
Before I use it and lose my cool
When I smile, tell me some bad news
Before I laugh and act like a fool

And If I swallow anything evil
Put your finger down my throat
And If I shiver, please give me a blanket
Keep me warm, let me wear your coat

No one knows what it's like to be the bad man
To be the sad man behind blue eyes

With Hotel California, it describes my abuse in certain ways. For instance, "you can check out any time you like, but you can't ever leave" and "they stab it with their steely knives but they just can't kill the beast". It describes how the abuser used my own sexuality to abuse me and twist my young mind. Even now it seems I would love to chut that time out of my life and kill it, but it won't die. In fact, I did for 34 years, b ut it affected me anyway and it still came back. Bob Seger, “Against the Wind” also captures my feelings that I was always fighting against something to live.





Edited by catfish86 (12/26/09 02:27 PM)
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The Serenity to accept the things I cannot change,
The Courage to change the things I can,
And the Wisdom to know the difference.

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#316453 - 12/26/09 03:54 PM Re: What song sings your life?? [Re: catfish86]
Ornias Offline


Registered: 08/13/09
Posts: 310
sr 71 tomorrow

Is it any wonder why I'm scared,
If I was a little younger would I
Care,
Feeling like the walls are growing stronger,
I don't know if this cage can hold me any longer

You never dreamed you'd have to love your life so guarded,
Cause they'll find a way to make you feel discarded

I'm not afraid of tomorrow,
I'm only scared of myself,
Feels like my insides are on fire,
And I'm looking through the eyes of someone else

I never thought they'd want me to go even faster,
Never thought I took my foot off the gas,
Everybody loves to be in on the pressure,
But I know they're all waiting for the crash

You never dreamed you'd have to live your life so guarded,
Cause they'll find a way to make you feel discarded,
Things have changed you've become a complication,
Can make it through another days humiliation

I'm not afraid of tomorrow,
I only scared of myself,
Feels like my insides are on fire,
And I'm looking through the eyes of someone else

Someone else...
Someone else...

Is it any wonder why the answer keeps me petrified,
Is it any wonder why,
I'm scared...

I'm not afraid of tomorrow,
I'm only scared of myself,
Feels like my insides are on fire,
And I'm looking through the eyes of someone else

I'm not afraid of tomorrow,
I'm only scared of myself,
Feels like my insides are on fire,
And I'm looking through the eyes of someone else

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its not easy to hide all this damage inside,
and ill carry it w
ith me until i'm not alive.

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#316499 - 12/26/09 09:58 PM Re: What song sings your life?? [Re: Ornias]
b869 Offline


Registered: 01/26/09
Posts: 767
Loc: Philippines


"Welcome To My Life"

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more?
Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

No one ever lied straight to your face
And no one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
You never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like, what it's like

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like (what it's like)

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life

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When thing get complicated go back to simplicity

Harvey Fierstein
Never be bullied into silence. Never allow yourself to be made a victim. Accept no one's definition of your life; define yourself.

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#316786 - 12/29/09 09:56 AM Re: What song sings your life?? [Re: MADcHATTER]
Sans Logos Offline
Member
MaleSurvivor

Registered: 05/31/03
Posts: 5791
Loc: in my own world in pittsburgh,...
Across the Great Divide



I've been walkin' in my sleep
Countin' troubles 'stead of countin' sheep
Where the years went I can't say
I just turned around and they've gone away

I've been siftin' through the layers
Of dusty books and faded papers
They tell a story I used to know
And it was one that happened so long ago

CHORUS:
It's gone away in yesterday
Now I find myself on the mountainside
Where the rivers change direction
Across the Great Divide

Now, I hear the owl a-callin'
Softly as the night was fallin'
With a question and I replied
But he's gone across the borderline

CHORUS

The finest hour that I have seen
Is the one that comes between
The edge of night and the break of day
It's when the darkness rolls away

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  2. ReClaiming Now
  3. advocacy


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#316847 - 12/29/09 08:16 PM Re: What song sings your life?? [Re: Sans Logos]
Obi Offline
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MaleSurvivor

Registered: 12/28/09
Posts: 1314
Loc: kansas
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Edited by Obi (04/29/13 01:34 PM)
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#317930 - 01/06/10 07:44 PM Re: What song sings your life?? [Re: Obi]
zb420 Offline


Registered: 08/16/09
Posts: 251
linkin park:





Edited by zb420 (01/06/10 07:45 PM)

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#319568 - 01/21/10 12:00 AM Re: What song sings your life?? [Re: zb420]
alan55 Offline


Registered: 08/19/09
Posts: 202
Loc: Seattle, WA
There is one I liked for many years. I'm 56 so my choice comes from another era. It came out in 1969 its by the Youngbloods and its called "Darkness Darkness"
Darkness,darkness
Be my pillow take my hand and let me sleep
In the coolness of your shadow in the silence of your deed
Darkness darkness be my blanket
Cover me with your night
Take away take away the pain that won't go away
I can't remember all the words, but it said a lot to me back then when all I wanted was to be left alone.


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