I have the exact same thing..... sorta
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I have nightmares and once specifically is a mix between a dream and a flash- back/memory where he cums in my mouth and down my throat and I immediately wake up and feel extremely nauseous still tasting it and feeling like its there. I used to throw up the first couple of times it happened but I don't get sick anymore (thank god) from that one.
I was really worried at the WOR that I attended because I was scared that I would vomit on the bed there like i would do at home, so I went to the 'safe room' with one of the counselors and told Him of my worry about having that nightmare and getting sick and messing everything up and then making everyone angry with me (I still can't believe I was able to talk face to face to someone about it).
After I spoke/cried to him, he reassured me and told me some helpful stuff and why i was feeling the way I was at that time and that I was normal and that I was doing Ok. Like Ken said above, after I had spoken about it (without leaving out the details), the problem almost went away fully!!!
What I just shared was private and I did not think that I was ever going to share that here although, I did hint at it in another post.
I hope that someone finds it helpful...... At least they will know that they aren't alone at all with this symptom(?)/problem.
I found that strong grounding techniques very helpful like holding ice cubes in my hands and (this may not be so orthodox especially with guys that have self injury problems) pushing a Thumb Tack against the tip of one of my fingers.
Both of those grounding tactics worked well for me.
Take care and hope you resolve this soon,
Edited by Logan (12/17/09 09:21 PM)
"Terrible thing to live in Fear"-Shawshank Redemption
WOR Alumnus Hope Springs 2009
"Quite a thing to live in fear, this is what is means to be a slave"