fuck it was freaking beyond hell but it was the past, bad as it was , its past , it happened but it ain't happening now. Don't be scared of it, look at it, know what triggers it, and know that you were the innocent victim of evil, it sucks that there is evil out there, but we had no control over it, it didn't find us cause we were bad or worthless, it just found us for no freaking good reason, if not us it would have been someone else. The why it happened don't freaking matter, the getting better from it does, and we freaking deserve getting better.

personally i think there should be much longer prison sentences for child molesters. its really sad that you would spend more time in prison for stealing a car than for abusing a child. and i highly doubt the guy whose car you stole would be in therapy 30 years later.

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It takes relationships to fix us, since it took relationships to break us.

I think of the word healing, and in some ways, it make sense, and in others, it seem silly to me. Like to survive the past, it is like to have the cold, and then you take the medicine and you do not sneeze or cough no more, so you are healed. I do not know that this thing we all do, this process that we do, that there is definite 'end' to it. Maybe it is more like the alcoholics or such, that they say they are always in recovering, never 'recovered'. Maybe that is us, recovering survivors. However it is, I am happy how it is right now for me. I hope it can be as this for everone some time.

The feeling I get from learning from things, and working at the positive of things, it is a feeling that is worth the more work. So am I.

So The whole Point to this is This. I Let Go Of Having to do it all Perfect. I am Going to Fuck Up. Thats the way we Learn what Not to Do again, Hopefully.