I've been a little sad about Tadd Garrison
So I found this conversation I had with him in chat the day after Christmas in 2008. I have edited it a little bit. The conversation comforts me about him a lot.
[Tadd] 10:59 pm: yeah I've seen him in here before a few times
[Tadd] 11:01 pm: well school's also out for many of them so I know that they come here alot more since
[Tadd] 11:01 pm: ginger said he's a boy
[pufferfish] 11:01 pm: Yeah! Sometimes we can't be sure
[Tadd] 11:02 pm: he said the name is that of his dog
[pufferfish] 11:02 pm: That makes sense. I have known people who'se dog was named ginger
[Tadd] 11:03 pm: what is a PSA? I know what the CSA is but never heard of the other one before
[pufferfish] 11:04 pm: PSA = pounds per square inch
[Tadd] 11:04 pm: that's PSI isn't it?
[pufferfish] 11:04 pm: Oh yes, Ahhhh!!! You shot me down!
[pufferfish] 11:05 pm: just joking lol lol lol :††††
[pufferfish] 11:05 pm: Here's Li
[Tadd] 11:06 pm: yuppers Li
[pufferfish] 11:07 pm: It sounds like we have stuff in common. Are you fairly new to MS?
[Tadd] 11:08 pm: yes
[pufferfish] 11:08 pm: perhaps Tinel is a kid
[Tadd] 11:09 pm: he's 25 and extremely religious
[pufferfish] 11:10 pm: Oh! You might say I am religious. I was suffocated during abuse when I was 12. I had a "near-death" experience. Surrounded by light. Then I came back alive
[pufferfish] 11:10 pm: thanks
[Tadd] 11:11 pm: same for me when I almost died
[pufferfish] 11:11 pm: Ohhhhhhhhhhhhh!
[pufferfish] 11:11 pm: You saw light?
[pufferfish] 11:11 pm: all around
[Tadd] 11:11 pm: yes and floating in space and voice
[pufferfish] 11:12 pm: I believe God brought me back. Later I found salvation through Christ.
[pufferfish] 11:12 pm: God keeps me going. I believe he teaches me
[Tadd] 11:13 pm: well I believe the same thing and heard it in my head before I was returned actually
[pufferfish] 11:13 pm: You heard what in your head?
[Tadd] 11:14 pm: me being told that it wasn't my time yet and I remembered answering that I didn't want to
go back..the next thing I was back with some doctor putting a needle in my arm
[pufferfish] 11:14 pm: Words from God?
[Tadd] 11:15 pm: yes or an angel of the Lords
[pufferfish] 11:15 pm: I believe that. There is a guy in my church (a doctor) who has compiled these kinds
of testimonies into a book. Somebody gave me the book but I don't have it anymore.
[pufferfish] 11:16 pm: I don't remember any words during my experience but there may have been some.
[pufferfish] 11:16 pm: So you were abused and what - - - taken to a hospital?
[Tadd] 11:17 pm: yes I was abused many times but a lot of people before trying to take my life then when I
was brought back I was put in a hospital for 3 years
[pufferfish] 11:18 pm: You were very depressed
[Tadd] 11:19 pm: yeah, to say the least
[pufferfish] 11:20 pm: It is helping me so much to talk to you and the others in the main Lounge. But I'm
terribly sorry you had to go through so much
[Tadd] 11:20 pm: well that's my cross to bare I guess
[Tadd] 11:21 pm: but thank you anyway
[pufferfish] 11:22 pm: Wow! It makes me want to know more about your experiences. I now think my perp
at age 12 must have been a psychopath.
[Tadd] 11:22 pm: he could have been
[pufferfish] 11:23 pm: How many perps did you have?
[Tadd] 11:24 pm: thru all my life or just in those years I specified?
[pufferfish] 11:25 pm: I had a bunch of perps over the years. I wrote pufferfish stories 1,2,3,4,and 5 and 6
is yet to come. Different perps from ages 4 to 13
[Tadd] 11:25 pm: about 18 or so in my early years
[pufferfish] 11:25 pm: including my grandfather
[Tadd] 11:26 pm: ditto here
[pufferfish] 11:26 pm: wow! you've got me beat
[Tadd] 11:26 pm: he's the main one everyweekend of my life
[pufferfish] 11:26 pm: I feel like I have known you a long time by now
[Tadd] 11:26 pm: sorry you were hurt by them
[pufferfish] 11:27 pm: me too. and I express the same sorry to you
[Tadd] 11:27 pm: thx
[pufferfish] 11:27 pm: abuse kind of ruins our lives
[Tadd] 11:27 pm: douglas is busy PMing me tonight so I guess the main chat room is spared for a little
[Tadd] 11:27 pm: yes it does
[pufferfish] 11:28 pm: My dog is asking me to take him out so I may have to go on BRB status. If it
pleases you, keep this window open and I'll be back
[Tadd] 11:28 pm: oh ok
posted by Allen