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#304637 - 09/29/09 02:52 PM Dissociative Disorder
PatchworkMama Offline


Registered: 01/24/09
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My husband has started having dissociative disorders at night. The first one he went out to our driveway, smoked cigarettes, talked to some friends and laid down in our driveway and woke up at 5:30 in the morning very confused.

Since then I have found him wandering the house at night. At first I thought he was sleepwalking. But then the episodes became more and more frequent and he started talking to me when I followed him. I have now met him at age 12, 14, 16 and 18. We have had discussions about events in his life I would have never known about and I have watched him physically re-live his abuse.

He tells me that his therapist calls these dissociative night terrors. And I have learned that these are a part of his life as he continues in therapy.

Recently I have discovered that my husband is listed on several gay dating sites. And have discovered some risque stuff. I have asked my husband about all this and he tells me that it is not him. I have looked further into this and it has to be him. I have solid proof. Is this another thing he would do in a dissociative episode? Would he not remember these sites?

Has anyone had experience with anything like this? How concerned should I be?

Thank you!


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#304642 - 09/29/09 03:19 PM Re: Dissociative Disorder [Re: PatchworkMama]
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Patchworkmama,

It sounds like he has DID (dissociative identity disorder).

He has the history of abuse which could produce DID.

Symptoms would be:
1. Doing things he is later unaware of.
2. Losing time
3. Heavy dissociation
4. History of abuse
5. Sleepwalking (not asleep but in a different alter)

It also sounds as though his T has not figured this out yet. Some Ts don't accept that there really is such a thing. Others just don't know how to work with it. Still others have just never had a previous client with this disorder.

Allen

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#304711 - 09/30/09 08:16 AM Re: Dissociative Disorder [Re: pufferfish]
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Patchworkmama,

There are a lot of guys who can tell you much more about that than I can, but I certainly hope you can find yourself some assistance in working through this...I just wanted to lend a voice of support to you and your family.

sono

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#304740 - 09/30/09 01:31 PM Re: Dissociative Disorder [Re: sono]
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Thanks guys for your input. I have wondered if it wasn't full-blown DID. But I also thought maybe he has just been too ashamed, embarrassed, or afraid of my reaction to be honest about the sites and things.

I don't really know why any of this matters. Except that I would not like our four children to be exposed to any of the sites or people he might meet from the sites without an explanation. And since I am at work so much, I don't know what is happening when I'm not at home.

I would love to talk to anyone who knows anything about this or has experience with this. I am not allowed to talk to his therapist (it is a rule my H has laid down, he wants complete privacy with his therapist). I have so many questions. Is this an alter or shame? Would the alter have a different moral compass than the husband I know? Will I only see the alters at night? When/if I come across these things again, should I make him aware of them? How can I make sense of this? How can I break it down, so if my kids see an alter, they aren't scared? How do I be the best support for my husband?

Thank you!


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#304758 - 09/30/09 04:31 PM Re: Dissociative Disorder [Re: PatchworkMama]
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Originally Posted By: PatchworkMama
Thanks guys for your input. I have wondered if it wasn't full-blown DID. But I also thought maybe he has just been too ashamed, embarrassed, or afraid of my reaction to be honest about the sites and things.


First I have to say that I don't know your husband and so I have made a remote diagnosis. I may be wrong. It happened once before. blush

DID involves being super-blind to one's own problems. This is often called amnesia. It is not dishonesty. He set up the system as a very little boy. It was set up to protect himself against stuff that was too terrifying for a little boy to face. If he faces it too rapidly it is too shocking (even for an adult) because his fear system is probably still intact.

The alter that you know is most likely to be unware of the others. If you try to break it to him too suddenly it can be an extreme shock and/or just rejected. A T has to help him little-by-little to gain insight as to what's going on.

Since he is already seeing a T he may have achieved some level of insight as to his own system, whatever it is.

DID is very different from one individual to another because each little person figures out how to do it all by themselves. (It is set up by the very small child to handle abuse that is overwhelming them). It is almost like setting up a play house with a lot of little characters in it. Except it is very much real. In a way it is a house of cards or like the Japanese houses with paper walls. The walls are very thin but very real and are maintained by the belief that they have to be there. They are called "alters" for alternate-personalities. Just for example, one alter will be the front-man or host or the guy who presents himself to the public. This is probably the guy you know. Then there will be one or more alters who deal with the sexual stuff. There is probably a high level of amnesia between that (or those) alters and the main front-man alter. The activities or those (presumed) alters are what you have described.

There are sometimes alters with different functions. Sometimes there is one who numbs out if there is danger of the system being exposed. Some DIDs have a policeman alter to protect the system (it depends on their situation: What did they need protection from if anything). Sometimes they have a bunch of child alters who like to play or do childish things. Sometimes they have names and functions all of which are unknown to the host alter. Sometimes there are incompletely-formed alters or fragments. That is the amnestic barrier maintaining them is incomplete.

Since the whole system is based on amnesia, it is in one sense fragile but in another it can be very difficult to deal with.
You're name is "PatchworkMama" but he is in a sense a real "Patchwork Papa".

Originally Posted By: PatchworkMama

I don't really know why any of this matters. Except that I would not like our four children to be exposed to any of the sites or people he might meet from the sites without an explanation. And since I am at work so much, I don't know what is happening when I'm not at home.


There's a lot about your situation that I don't know, such as the ages and genders of your children. Therefore I don't know the degree of danger to you or your children.

Originally Posted By: PatchworkMama

I would love to talk to anyone who knows anything about this or has experience with this. I am not allowed to talk to his therapist (it is a rule my H has laid down, he wants complete privacy with his therapist).


You really need to become educated about it. I have read several books. The one I recommend to you is:

Amongst Ourselves: A Self-Help Guide to Living with Dissociative Identity Disorder, by Trach Alderman and Karen Marshall. New Harbinger Publications. It is not expensive.

http://www.amazon.com/Amongst-Ourselves-...0428&sr=1-1

Originally Posted By: PatchworkMama

I have so many questions. Is this an alter or shame? Would the alter have a different moral compass than the husband I know?

As I said above, he probably has an alter or alters just for the sexual stuff. Too bad, but that's how it works. Yes, that alter works by have a diffenent attitude towards sexual stuff. It (or he) had to in order to deal with sexual abuse to which he was subjected as a small child.

Originally Posted By: PatchworkMama

Will I only see the alters at night?

There is a tendency for the alters to come out in the times when they were originally formed. So possibly yes, this may mean that they (or it) comes out at night. You might not even know that was happening unless you know what to look for.

This is how it worked with me. (I think). This is getting too long to say very much about me now. There are 2 other books which describe other types of DID. I have read both of these:

Miss America By Day, by Marilyn vanDerber.
http://www.amazon.com/Miss-America-Day-B...0909&sr=1-1

I see this one is getting hard to obtain. Get it from the library or a used book store.

The other is Breaking Free, by Herschel Walker.

http://www.amazon.com/Breaking-Free-Diss...1026&sr=1-1

Both Marilyn vanDerber and Herschel Walker are kind of "super people". They live very much above average lives. This shows that DID is often a disorder of very much above average achievers. They are not phantoms or anything.

Originally Posted By: PatchworkMama

When/if I come across these things again, should I make him aware of them?


NO. Be careful about this. Breaing the amnesia abruptly can cause trouble. Maybe there would be some way you could 'provide his T with information' while respecting his confidentiality.

Originally Posted By: PatchworkMama

How can I make sense of this? How can I break it down, so if my kids see an alter, they aren't scared?


Do some reading. Read some of our stories here at MS. Some of my story is here.

Alters your kids might have seen might not be scary at all. Maybe they have seen some child alters. They just think that 'Daddy is a lot of fun to play with'. There is no reason to believe that he would be at all dangerous to your children. If your children have seen alters, or if you have, you may just passed them off as being moodiness. Being DID doesn't make somebody dangerous.

Originally Posted By: PatchworkMama

How do I be the best support for my husband?


Good attitude to ask that question. Do some of the reading I recommended. Don't panic. Don't give up. Don't get angry. Make sure your own needs for people are being met. Do you have friends that you can pal around with and who can be fun for you to be with? Build your own support network. Keep on believeing in him. Be patient as he goes through his therapy. He must already have some idea he has problems. He is building into your relationship the "amnesia" that he has in his own life.

Let me know if you have more questions.

Allen

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#304983 - 10/02/09 02:04 PM Re: Dissociative Disorder [Re: pufferfish]
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Thank you Allen,

We have been married for almost 12 years. We have four children - 11, 9, 7 & 5. I work as a baker in the early morning and as a cashier at Wal-Mart on the 2nd shift (45-50/wk between both jobs). I do not have a very good support system. I do have a therapist, but since I worked at home until recently, I haven't had a chance to meet a lot of people. I am by nature shy and think that having a lot of friends is too complicated. We live in a smallish town - 21,000 people, there aren't a lot of resources here and I don't have the time or the money to travel very far. Just some background.

My main goal here is to find out how to best support my husband, get some answers and take care of our family. How do I find out if my H or an alter has done something that would affect his health or mine? Will this get worse before it gets better? Is there hope?

I believe that the H I know is one of the most brilliant, facinating, and amazing people I know. I find him loving, attentive, supportive, and very handsome. I have stayed by his side before and shall as long it is safe for everyone now. But fear is a great motivator and the primary source of fear is a lack of knowledge. I shall attempt to get and read the books you suggest and will do my best to read them. And I will work on building a support system as I can crawl out from underneath my shell and allow someone into this chaos.

Thank you so very much for sharing all that you have shared. You have helped me so very much and I appreciate everything. If there are others who would like to shed some light on DID - it would be much appreciated. What is it like for you to live with DID? What would you like for support from your SO?

Thanks again!


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#304988 - 10/02/09 03:30 PM Re: Dissociative Disorder [Re: PatchworkMama]
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Patchwork Mama,

Here are a bunch of links to discussions of DID/MPD here at MS. Some of these are posts I have made. There are several here who most likely have it. You will be able to see this.

Do you know how to use this? Just position the mouse pointer over the link and click the left mouse button. Your computer will move to the post at the end of the link.

Answer to DouglasLloyd
http://www.malesurvivor.org/board/ubbthr...1280#Post301280

Major post to MPD-DID thread
http://www.malesurvivor.org/board/ubbthr...9954#Post299954

Major post to MPD-DID thread
http://www.malesurvivor.org/board/ubbthr...9420#Post299420

http://www.malesurvivor.org/board/ubbthr...9090#Post299090

Daniel_forgotten’s Self Disclosure
http://www.malesurvivor.org/board/ubbthr...3322#Post303322


Allen

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#304989 - 10/02/09 03:57 PM Re: Dissociative Disorder [Re: pufferfish]
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Hi, Patchwork Mama.

I am supportive of your efforts to take care of your family.

I am going to be careful with my wording.

Allen, has given some great information.

In light, of this post I can understand his behavior better now.

I have seen my T regarding the csa and I asked about DID and was told - the PTSD shows the same symptoms within myself as DID.

I wish you and your family well.

Peace,
DJ



Edited by DJsport (10/03/09 12:49 PM)
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#305014 - 10/03/09 02:30 AM Re: Dissociative Disorder [Re: DJsport]
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hello patchworkmama

i'm DID. diagnosed some months ago.

they seem to be addict to habits. i've also found gay porn in my computer, but me (front, main ones) are straight and we are grossed out with the idea of two men together.

i will try and explain some stuff later, can't say much right now, i'm sorry.

I understand it must be so hard for partners but you're are an amazing person for standing by his side through this.


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#305217 - 10/04/09 08:29 PM Re: Dissociative Disorder [Re: Daniel_forgotten]
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I hope I can shed some light on a part of DID. I am NOS (not otherwise specified) DID. I don't lose time, which is rare, but I go away a lot, and think and act like different people, even though I am aware of nearly everything that has gone on, and have a killer memory (also somewhat unusual).

A bigger problem for me is PTSD - or C-PTSD in my case "complex PTSD). Many in the field think that PTSD is on the same arc as DID, just less severe. So I have severe PTSD mixed with some of the less intense parts of DID.

I was more dissasociated until I was 26, since then I have become more unified as a person. I tend to do this when I'm triggered by very abusive people - esp. women.

I have a friend who is very DID, she has dozens of personalities, some male. Some angry. Some sad. She loses time all the time.

It's a complex story for everone that has it. I believe therapy and a lot of time and effort yields the best long term results.

I hope anyone with DID, or suspicion of DID gets help. I didn't really hit it head on until about 2002 when I was 45. It won't go away on its own - at least not at a rate that can do much good IMO.

Take care.


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#305277 - 10/05/09 03:14 PM Re: Dissociative Disorder [Re: takingflight]
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Everyone, thank you for your brave responses. They mean a lot to lost and very confused woman, wife and mother of four.

Allen, thank you I have been checking out the posts as I have time and they have given good insight..

Hi DJ. I figured you would respond. wink

Daniel_forgotten, thank you for your brave response. I would love to hear more if you are up to it. You brought tears to my eyes with your compliment - it means a lot.

takingflight. Thank you. What you have said rings true a bit too. My H feels a definite loss of time at night when I see a completely different H. Usually I talk to his 12 year old self, who walks differently, talks differently and is very confused about why he is in our house. The 12 year old is very much stuck at processing what happened to him and want to tell someone but is scared that his abuser will kill him. It is a very distinct personality from the H I know. The same with th 14, 16, and 18 year old. Each have a very different personality and are stuck just after a traumantic moment for my H.

However during the day my H says he never loses time or finds himself in a place he doesn't recognize. He doesn't get emails or see anything that seems strange to him and he never feels like he loses time. But then why doesn't he remember the internet stuff? Maybe here he doesn't lose time?

Just a thought. Thank you all. I would love to continue hearing your stories and advice.

Shawn


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#305282 - 10/05/09 04:24 PM Re: Dissociative Disorder [Re: PatchworkMama]
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Hi, Shawn.

I am so empathizing with you. I can only imagination what your going through.

I fully understand - well most of it. There have been moments where my personality is split but my T states they will come together.

I would like to help anyway that I can and in what you need. I have no problem being there.

From what your saying about the internet, maybe it is his confusing about sex and its connection with the happenings from years ago. This is powerful stuff and it is causing the DID - right Daniel. I think Daniel has a better idea about the DID.

I have the PTSD which I understand is similiar to the DID just like takingflight stated. I have dissociated in the past. I can and have lost whole days although not in a row. I do lose myself at times. I know how frustating it is for my loved ones.

NOW for you Shawn. I say give yourself a pat on the back for being there for you and yours. I know this will help in getting some understanding. BUT, give yourself a break too if your NOT getting one. It is challenging to remember daily events and experience those events with him only to have him not remember them the next moment. At times this has to hurt.

PM if you need to. I would like to hear from you.

You are a strong person who deserves fun and relief.

Peace,
DJ







Edited by DJsport (10/05/09 04:35 PM)
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#305323 - 10/05/09 09:49 PM Re: Dissociative Disorder [Re: DJsport]
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I am totally distraught. I went to my therapist this afternoon and let him know all that was going on. I was expecting him to help me deal with all that my husband and I are going through. He suggested instead that I leave my husband.

He says that my H is lying about everything. That it is not dissociation but rather deliberate deception. I am being manipulated and controlled (perhaps not intentionally) by my husband. He says my H exploits my loyalty and generosity. He gave me the number of a domestic violence shelter.

Wow, I first went for help with my own personal issues, and my lack of direction in my life. I've only seen him about 4 times and my H has never met him. How did we jump to this point?

Maybe its time for a new T? One that specializes in PTSD/DID and male csa? One who can help me and my personal issues with knowledge and respect to my H?

I don't know who/what to believe any more. My H? His alters? My T? And I don't want to leave my H. I just want to live a peaceful safe life for all of us. I'm tired of questioning my sanity and choices. I don't want to leave and that's all I really know.


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#305329 - 10/05/09 10:38 PM Re: Dissociative Disorder [Re: PatchworkMama]
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Originally Posted By: PatchworkMama
Maybe its time for a new T? One that specializes in PTSD/DID and male csa? One who can help me and my personal issues with knowledge and respect to my H?

I don't know who/what to believe any more. My H? His alters? My T? And I don't want to leave my H. I just want to live a peaceful safe life for all of us. I'm tired of questioning my sanity and choices. I don't want to leave and that's all I really know.


Shawn (Patchworkmama),

I think you got it. You need a new T. Your present T is giving you very bad advice.

Allen

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#305352 - 10/06/09 01:39 AM Re: Dissociative Disorder [Re: PatchworkMama]
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Originally Posted By: PatchworkMama

My H feels a definite loss of time at night when I see a completely different H. Usually I talk to his 12 year old self, who walks differently, talks differently and is very confused about why he is in our house. The 12 year old is very much stuck at processing what happened to him and want to tell someone but is scared that his abuser will kill him. It is a very distinct personality from the H I know. The same with th 14, 16, and 18 year old. Each have a very different personality and are stuck just after a traumantic moment for my H.

This is so interesting and seems like tremendous progress.

Originally Posted By: Patchworkmama

However during the day my H says he never loses time or finds himself in a place he doesn't recognize. He doesn't get emails or see anything that seems strange to him and he never feels like he loses time. But then why doesn't he remember the internet stuff? Maybe here he doesn't lose time?


This sounds like my story. I didn't lose time during the day either. Any stuff he doesn't remember is beyond the amnestic veil.

I still need to write up my own story as far as DID is concerned. The reason it is coming so slow is that I have to pull a lot of stuff together in order to make it succinct and cogent. Some of it has grown cold in my memory.

Allen

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#305365 - 10/06/09 07:26 AM Re: Dissociative Disorder [Re: pufferfish]
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Hello, my name is Michael and I have never been on a site like this. I was treated for many years by therapist that did not know the difference in one diagnosis and DID. I tried suicide so many times until I finally came to understand that it was DID. Find a Therapist that believes in you and in DID that makes all the difference in the world.

I don't know what this site is all about, so if I am out of line I am sorry.

Michael


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#305383 - 10/06/09 11:39 AM Re: Dissociative Disorder [Re: Michael811]
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Michael,

That was a helpful post. You're doing just fine!

Allen

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#305404 - 10/06/09 02:25 PM Re: Dissociative Disorder [Re: pufferfish]
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Posts: 54
Loc: Iowa
Michael,

I think that you are very brave for saying what you have. To reach out and find all of us here takes a lot of courage. Thank you. You helped me realize something....

I have come to this conclusion, I must follow what I know... my H that I see is a wonderful, generous, kind, loving man and I love him dearly. What he doesn't remember or what his alters do is irrelevant (unless safety is compromised - unprotected sex, maniac lovers, etc.). What matters is what I felt when I first met him and still feel today, he is like my missing puzzle piece.

I must find a support system and therapist that understands this instead of those that undermines me and my H.

This must be a very lonely diagnosis for all of you and your SO's. So many don't even think that what you have is real. So many don't believe what you say. And the implications are far-reaching. Support must be nearly impossible to find. It makes me so sad. I understand the suicide attempts - it feels like there is no way out and no one who believes any of this is real or beyond your control.

And for me, because I choose to stand behind my husband I have to go against my therapist, my family, all of my support system. All who say I am a gutless wimp showing my children to be a doormat. But damn it. This is not the easy path. Its just the right path. We all deserve to have somebody stand behind us.

Please continue talking. Sharing our pain helps others know we are not alone no matter what the world says. There is hope.



Edited by PatchworkMama (10/06/09 02:26 PM)

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#305409 - 10/06/09 02:40 PM Re: Dissociative Disorder [Re: PatchworkMama]
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PatchworkMama

I did not have anyone to stand behind or beside me for so long. I never told my mom what I had or even what so many of her friends and family did to me. It took finding a therapist that I could trust to help me come back to life.I have tried everything and nothing ever seemed to work. I lost my family in this battle as they turned their backs on me as if I was to blame. I now have someone on my side like your husband has you. It maybe hard to stand beside someone who has been through so much but they did not ask for this it was put upon them by outsiders. I looked at my nephew once and thought to myself How could they have done this to a child that age and then I realized they did that to me at that age. He needs your support and your love.


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#305410 - 10/06/09 02:53 PM Re: Dissociative Disorder [Re: PatchworkMama]
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they are there to help but they can be a lot of trouble too. i'm not sure what's your husband's case, looks like they are him at different ages? IDK, we have some who are a child version of some older ones, but most of them are totally different people. the more we think about the others, the less we can think about 'ourselves' as a single being. when at public, only 2 or 3 show up. most of them, specially children won't ever come out unless they feel they are around ppl we trust blindly. Only happens with 1 friend and had happened with the T. It happens sometimes when we come here too.

this is how it works for us: there's a lot of stuff some of them remember and lived as kids and they won't share with the others. There's some stuff many of us remember but from different views. like if you are standing looking at a train. Now you remember being in front of train, back, above and inside. it's the same memory looked at from different places, each one different feelings, thoughts or just nothing but images.

sometimes something triggers someone and then he can flashback and others are exposed to his memories. That's not good. That usually ends up wrong.

sometimes one uf us remembers something happened in some way and other remembers it happened in a completely twisted different way. so it's ok because we feel like at least some of us were safe and ok.

another thing is about the body. We don't really feel conected with it. it's hard to explain but it is like body is something completely different. many of us dont even know what it looks like. only a few feel they look like the body. When bad stuff happens we can't feel the body at all.

well we don't know how much that helps, we're sorry if we're just writing nonsense.


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#305419 - 10/06/09 04:06 PM Re: Dissociative Disorder [Re: Daniel_forgotten]
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Posts: 54
Loc: Iowa
Thank you so much Daniel_forgotten and Michael881. Your posts do help A LOT. Thank you for telling me from your side. You are very brave to share and have helped me out greatly.

Keep talking, it all helps. A lot. I think what you are saying about one remembering something one way and another remembers a completely different way. It would explain why the alters all seem to have the same history, just split off at various times. And why my H would say he doesn't know anything about an incident but eventually, when presented with the cold-hard undeniable facts, suddenly remembers what happened.

Thank you all very much. I appreciate it more than I can express. You give me peace of mind. 8)


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#305484 - 10/07/09 04:39 AM Re: Dissociative Disorder [Re: Daniel_forgotten]
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by the way. If your husband is experiencing blackouts (time loss) it is a good idea for you to protect yourself sexually. At least until you know that he is in a safe place. He may not be acting out with others at all I don't know. But you should always protect yourself from harm.


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#305680 - 10/08/09 10:17 PM Re: Dissociative Disorder [Re: takingflight]
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I am not sure if this is of any help, my aunt has did and one day going out to eat we were sitting at the table when the personality who likes shiny objects poped out long enough to slip the silverware into her purse, then left as quickly. My6 aunt spent the rest of dinner feeling saddened that they had not set out silver for her and felt very left out, never knowing that one of her selves pocketed the silver and thats why there was not any. My aunt never loses time as such, it is almost as if for her, these other identies inside of her live their respective lives as normal in her head and when they come out they don't know there is a difference. We asked my aunt what had just happened and she told us that she was sorry and just had made a quick run to the bathroom (as far as she knows that is what she was doing while the other her stole the silver)


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#305690 - 10/08/09 10:58 PM Re: Dissociative Disorder [Re: supportinghim]
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thanks for that window that is a great one to create the basic dimension understanding of it- cause it takes out the complexity of the emotional/person partner neglect issues that mire the clear vision of the process.

could or did you all ask her to open her purse to discover silver had been provided for her after all? I just wondered what her response would have been then. i'm thinking like a therapist it maybe was an opportunity for integration.

thank's for the clarity of that understanding. in a sense, maybe she lost time, no? - those minutes she was putting the silver in her purse - that's why she had to come up with a "filler" for that time of the running to the bathroom? (again that bathroom run was technically lie and in the partner issue dimensions usually takes on whole other meanings since the acting out is so less innocuous....

our minds and psyches are sooooo fascinating.

Hope and Healing, An



Edited by An (10/08/09 11:01 PM)

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#305699 - 10/08/09 11:56 PM Re: Dissociative Disorder [Re: An]
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as an effort to not trigger one of her worse personality it was not brought up until we reached her house. She got very upset that we would put those in her purse while she went to the bathroom. Once she calmed down she was able to understand that another personality pushed through. Only one of her personalities know everything that happens when the others are in control, and she has one that has no memories other than the times she has come out. The things (such as running to the bathroom)are very much remembered as lived through. Even though she is very aware of having DID she still feels as though the memories she has of the times she was not in control are completely real


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#305730 - 10/09/09 04:27 AM Re: Dissociative Disorder [Re: supportinghim]
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Thank you again Supportinghim for sharing that- it sheds much light and makes her-reality-"sense"- that she'd be upset you put them in the purse while she went to bathroom. and the info that only one personality is aware of the others explains why you waited.
don't mean to hijack this thread so I won't say more but i find it extremely helpful illumination as to the realities of DID in it's many forms. Stuff that sheds light on understanding survivor realities and challenges. Thankyou, An


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