Well, Scott, knowing something of the abuse that happened to you, I can certainly see why you have these flashbacks.
You were humiliated, it was violent.
I'm so sorry that happened to you. I sympathize with you for having those memories.
I'm hoping that you still have good therapy where you can talk about what happened to you. The guy who did those things to you was certainly not thinking of your feelings. He hurt you really badly. I remember what you've told us about him.
I know that those things must haunt you, and, of course it would come out when you think and talk of sex.
One day, my friend, you will be free of that stuff...oh, sure the memory, but not the emotional reaction that you have now from time to time.
I'm holding you close this morning, Scot, and praying for an end to your nightmare of what was done to you.
Peace, my friend,
"No soul is desolate as long as there is a human being for whom it can feel trust and reverence."