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#296120 - 07/20/09 04:34 PM The Fortress
JustScott Offline
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Registered: 01/27/08
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Quiet and dark upon a perilous crag,
sits a lonely fortress.
Waves far below crash against it's
foundation of stone.
The cold and icy breeze blowing,
chills down to the bone.
A single snaking path narrowly
winds its way to the gate,
Crossing a precipitous bridge
over the maelstrom below.
The sky above is
clouded and dark.
A look around reveals a
myriad of colors.
All shades of black
and grey.
There is no vegetation,
no life can be seen.
For this is the lonely fortress.
Where life is unwelcome,
"Stay Away!!!" it's blackened
walls scream.

On approach the massive gate looms.
Fashoined of mighty wood and
reinforeced with tempered steel,
It's presence raises up ominous
horrific fears.
The walls all around, are pockmarked
with murder holes, down from the heights,
and up from the ground.
Hidden inside each black hole, archers
and crossbowmen await.
Watching for the slightest sign, and
their rageful bloodlust they will sate.

Within the gate, there's a smaller door,
tiny, small, and square.
It's only opened at certain times,
and only to see who is there.
From the inside, it affords a view,
but from the outside, seeing in,
is something one cannot do.

Inside the fortress walls,
the colors are all dreary,
lifeless shades of grey.
Lonely and uninviting, a roaring,
and painful silence fills it's halls.
An oppressive force bears
heavily down, grasping and pulling joy and
happiness beneath the dead ground.
Pools of rain... tears lie here and there,
tears or pain and anguish and despair.

In the heart of the fortress the throne room lay.
Only here there is sound, neverending, night and day.
An endless wailing, moaning, an anguished cry.
Like an animal suffering, just longing to die.
Here, never a step has fallen, never a soul did stray.
The walls keep them all out, drive them all away.
The cry is one of anguished lonliness.
One of painful hurt and despair.
Crying ever out, to let someone near.
"Open the gates! Break down walls!"
But the ever present scream on deaf ears falls.

The walls and gate have not always been.
They were created to protect the one within.
But now they have become a prison.
Until a way can be found, to open the gate,
and the walls be unrisen.



Edited by JustScott (07/20/09 04:35 PM)

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#296158 - 07/20/09 09:27 PM Re: The Fortress [Re: JustScott]
Derdlecar Offline
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Registered: 11/08/05
Posts: 1314
Loc: Ogden Utah, USA
Thanks Scott for sharing. Sounds a whole lot like the place I used to live and sometimes live still.

Love ya
Darrel

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If a man would get his life on track, he must first go back to the place where it was derailed.

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#296172 - 07/20/09 10:55 PM Re: The Fortress [Re: Derdlecar]
JustScott Offline
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I'm there all the time frown

It's my existence every day.

No clue how to break it all down and let someone/anyone in.

At a loss.


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#296275 - 07/21/09 03:47 PM Re: The Fortress [Re: JustScott]
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Loc: Ogden Utah, USA
I did live there all the time. I'm trying to figure out a way to tell how or where to start to break the fortress down. Let me think about it my friend.

I will get back to you, promise.
Darrel

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If a man would get his life on track, he must first go back to the place where it was derailed.

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#296279 - 07/21/09 04:14 PM Re: The Fortress [Re: Derdlecar]
Trucker51 Offline
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Registered: 05/20/08
Posts: 2826
Loc: Denver, CO
Just have to take a few few chances until you enjoy some successes, then build on your successes. And slowly but surely with each success your walls will come tumbling down, as your self-esteem and self-confidence grows. Over time you will begin to accept greater risk and embrace opportunity, as you become self assured and as you recover your trust of others and the outside world you will move forward with confidence outside your walls, their job done, their memory ever more distant.

Great writing by the way, maybe you should try to get this one published!!!

Get out there and take a chance, the rewards of success are great indeed.

Mark



Edited by Trucker51 (07/21/09 04:16 PM)
Edit Reason: add one sentence
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#296313 - 07/21/09 10:04 PM Re: The Fortress [Re: Trucker51]
Derdlecar Offline
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Registered: 11/08/05
Posts: 1314
Loc: Ogden Utah, USA
For me, the only way out was to just bust out all at once. I got to a place of such desperation that it was either that or die. I don't know, but Marks plan may be a better one. Be that as it may, I went to see a T and started talking to people about my history of abuse all in the same day but that didn't last long, I went running back inside and slammed the door and stayed locked away for ever so long. But eventually I broke out again and I didn't have to get to quite as low a point as I had the first time I broke out. This went on for several years and as time passed, I came out more often and stayed out longer. I don't lock myself away very often anymore and when I do, I don't stay there for long. I still have my times tho.

I wish for you courage, and you just do what you have to in any way that you can accomplish it.

Love ya
Darrel

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If a man would get his life on track, he must first go back to the place where it was derailed.

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#296345 - 07/22/09 06:26 AM Re: The Fortress [Re: Derdlecar]
dark empathy Offline
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Registered: 11/26/07
Posts: 1996
Loc: durham, north england
Yep, a place I know. Nicely described in detail there Scot.

If I ever come up with a good plan of siege I'll be sure to tell you of it.


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#296933 - 07/26/09 02:05 PM Re: The Fortress [Re: dark empathy]
roadrunner Offline
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Registered: 05/02/05
Posts: 22045
Loc: Carlisle, PA
Scott,

Perhaps the key to breaking the fortress' power isn't to tear down the walls, but to open the gates - much as you are doing in this forum these days.

Much love,
Larry

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Nobody living can ever stop me
As I go walking my freedom highway.
Nobody living can make me turn back:
This land was made for you and me.
(Woody Guthrie)

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#387797 - 02/29/12 03:09 PM Re: The Fortress [Re: roadrunner]
JustScott Offline
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Registered: 01/27/08
Posts: 2578
Howdy!

Decided to post this on another site today... and found reading it before posting brought some emotion and tears....

Then figured rather than repost, I'd just find this and bump it all the way back up...

Wow... that was a long time ago...


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#387813 - 02/29/12 04:09 PM Re: The Fortress [Re: JustScott]
Country Offline


Registered: 02/29/12
Posts: 642
Loc: Alabama
The devil comes in many forms. God can conquer all. I know the place u spoke of tho. My gates have opened.

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Therefore put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand.

Ephesians 5:25

Husbands, love your wives, just as Christ loved the church and gave himself up for her

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