At time in recovery things can seem so confusing and you don't know if you are coming or going. And you have no clue what you need or should do. Talk to your T he maybe be able to help you find some direction. If you have no T then keeep posting and talking to those whom you trust.
Glad to see you post and allow us to see where your at. At times I need to verbalize what I am feeling in order understand where I am at and what my next step should be. instead of keeping it all bottled up.
To own one's shadow is the highest moral act of a human.
"IT ought never be forgotten that the past is the parent of the future" John C. Calhoun
WOR Alumni Sequoia 2009