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#293029 - 06/25/09 05:00 PM Re: The film I was apart of [Re: mogigo]
friendinneed Offline


Registered: 06/04/09
Posts: 107
For the courage you have shown. The beautiful, caring, kind soul you are. The inspiration you offer. For the boy and the man whose life is remarkable. For the truimph and the hope.

For the me I recognize in you, but more importantly for the me I want to become. A me encouraged through your example.

Mike, can a mere thank you ever be enough if the typing is a bit off it is because I am trying to see through tears...Tears of Joy. Joy. Want an amazing thing . I knew it happens to other people. But what a thing-who would have thought-me. Thank you my friend, thank you so very much.

I bid you peace my brother.

Shaun/friendinneed


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#293096 - 06/26/09 12:22 AM Re: The film I was apart of [Re: friendinneed]
Jim1961 Offline
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Registered: 03/10/09
Posts: 1116
Loc: Pa, but likely traveling...
Mike,
Awesome man. It really touched me. You are a man of great courage. Very inspiring!

Good luck in your new endeavors. I know you will be successful!

Jim

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Loneliness is a power that we possess to give or take away forever. -Yes, Starship Trooper

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#293118 - 06/26/09 03:34 AM Re: The film I was apart of [Re: Jim1961]
Logan Offline
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Registered: 04/05/03
Posts: 1205
Loc: NY
Bravo Mike!!! Well done!

I want to feel empowered by being accepted
i would like to speak with other survivors to feel the acceptance and gain a conformation of what happened to me and therefor gain some strength from the mutual shared sense of understanding and acceptance of me and what I have been through.
It seems like you were able to do exactly that. That place looks like a really great resource for healing.
I think that is the importance of speaking with other survivors, we gain support and don't feel as alone with what we feel and have been through!

what a brave thing to do and what an awesome group to be apart of.

You rock,
Logan

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"Terrible thing to live in Fear"-Shawshank Redemption
WOR Alumnus Hope Springs 2009
"Quite a thing to live in fear, this is what is means to be a slave"
-Blade Runner

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#293119 - 06/26/09 03:39 AM Re: The film I was apart of [Re: Logan]
Logan Offline
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Loc: NY
But Mark, P-House is filled with assholes and people who get off living in a vindictive manner!!!

Tell me I am lying!

Logan

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"Terrible thing to live in Fear"-Shawshank Redemption
WOR Alumnus Hope Springs 2009
"Quite a thing to live in fear, this is what is means to be a slave"
-Blade Runner

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#293155 - 06/26/09 09:54 AM Re: The film I was apart of [Re: Logan]
Juni Offline
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Registered: 12/10/08
Posts: 502
Loc: Florida, WPB
Wow Mike,

Inspiring for sure!

We have taken steps into the light, we can never go back.

I will never forget about the inspiring words I heard in this movie.

Bill

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One day at a time I make the journey.

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#293446 - 06/29/09 12:26 AM Re: The film I was apart of [Re: mogigo]
pufferfish Offline
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Registered: 02/26/08
Posts: 6808
Loc: USA
Originally Posted By: mogigo
Sorry guys it's 20 minutes but I'd be honoured if you'd watch it.

I did it because I'm not going to hide my face in shame anymore. That's what I decided when I started my journey, and that will be my decision until the end of my life.

http://www.thegatehouse.org/into-the-light

Stay strong
Mike




Edited by walkingsouth (11/29/09 01:03 AM)
Edit Reason: Edited to correct obsolete link

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#293461 - 06/29/09 01:08 AM Re: The film I was apart of [Re: mogigo]
joelRT Offline
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Registered: 09/11/08
Posts: 1357
Loc: Quťbec, Canada
Mike,

You have my humble thanks for this short as well as all of my admiration.

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My Story 1
My Story 2
The longest journey we take is to self-discovery

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#312170 - 11/28/09 06:26 PM Re: The film I was apart of [Re: joelRT]
Geeders Offline
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Registered: 09/03/08
Posts: 1901
Loc: Peterborough, Ontario, Canada
While the link to the video Mike did is no longer functional, I would like to share with you guys something that happened recently, and is a direct result of that video...

Just over a week ago, my T asked me if I could, or would consider making a speech, about being a male survivor. Eeek! eek Was she kidding me? Me? Come out about my abuse? Then she sent me the blurb for the venue. The keynote speaker was the guy who made that film. Art Lockhart, founder of The Gatehouse in Toronto. I was immediately compelled. I was hooked. That film, and Mike, and all those other guys in it, they saved my life.

I'd like to share most of what I said. For this post, I have removed identifying info. You can be assured though, that during the speech, I said my full name, and where I worked.

Helluva "coming out" party I tell ya! laugh



I was in the audience in March 2008 when Into The Light was premiered. As a professional attending the Men of Courage conference, I was awed, and amazed at the strength displayed by the men in that film. To see their resolve, and commitment to overcome the effects of childhood sexual abused convinced me that, as a Social Worker, although we barely touch the subject in our work at the jail, we simply had to do a better job. Clearly, we have been missing the proverbial boat, and have been missing it for a long time. While we can assess, identify and refer to programs such as Anger Management, Addictions, AA and NA, until such time as we can assess who these men see themselves as, as men, we are going to continue to miss the boat. I was equally struck by the pain that was both audible, and visible in that large room during the presentation of Into The Light. It was raw, and palpable. Some was very obvious: people crying. Some was more hidden as people, both men and women looked down at the floor, or away from the focus of their attention, covering their eyes so as not to be seen by others. It goes without saying that there were undoubtedly victims in the room, still hiding their shame and guilt. Still feeling like it was their fault, and that they were alone with the history of being abused.

After the film was premiered, those men who displayed great courage in having their stories recorded then presented themselves for a panel in front of 300 plus total strangers, and proceeded to tell more of their stories, and to answer questions of an audience that was captivated by their resilience, and their belief in themselves. I was floored by the sheer guts, and determination it took to make oneself so vulnerable, and accessible, to total strangers, about an aspect of menís lives that is intensely private, and personal. These men clearly were leading by example, rejecting the historical sentence of shame and guilt that society would have them serve for being victims of sexual abuse and assault. These men were no longer victims. They were Survivors!

Immediately following the film and panel, I retreated to my hotel room with a colleague. I was in desperate need of a smoke. But instead of having a smoke, I began to shake. I couldnít have had a smoke if my life depended on it. I was shaking like a leaf. And for reasons unknown to me at that time, I turned to my colleague and said to him ďThat could have been my storyĒ. Never in my adult life had I told another person, a friend, a colleague, or even my wife of then 26 years, that I was sexually assaulted when I was a child.

What that conference, that film, those men did to me! What they did FOR me! I canít believe that I am here tonight saying what I am saying to you! Iíve never done this before. But because of that conference, that film, and those men I was able to start my healing journey, to reclaim my life, and to learn to stop hiding what was done to me, not by me.

It wasnít immediate by any means. It took a few more months until I could actually face the reality of the Social Worker needing a therapist, a counsellor, himself. I found mine at our local sexual assault centre. What a gem she has turned out to be! I also became connected to, and a member of MaleSurvivor.org, an incredible web based support site for men, their spouses, lovers, friends and family to learn about male sexual abuse and assault, and to feel connected to one another. Feeling isolated, and alone with this history is so normal for survivors, but its also toxic. Shortly after I joined MaleSurvivor a man said to me that in order to heal, the man, and the man alone must make the decision to get on a healing path. But once on that path, he cannot walk it alone. He must have support. And boy, did I ever get support! And guess from whom? From a man in the movie Into The Light who is also active on the website. WOW!

Since then, Iíve told my wife about my abuse, and Iíve told our two sons. Iíve even become more active in the movement, while at the same time trying to maintain a level of safety and comfort for me. Iíve attended two Weekends of Recovery where I have been able to meet other men, just like me. I canít tell you what its like to finally feel like I belong, and that like Mike in the movie, Iím not an alien. That what happened to me, and the approximately 2.7 million other Canadian men was never our fault. And that, despite carrying my shame and guilt for 38 years, it is possible to heal, even after that length of time.

Iím not all the way there, though. Wherever that is. I may never be. All I know is, that as a result of Art Lockhartís work, the men of Into The Light, those visionary people at The Menís Project in Ottawa, and my ever present support system of my family, That I was finally able to tell someone else that I was sexually abused. I was heard, and not judged. I learned that what happened to me was not my fault. I learned that that I can be happy in my life, and that I am normal, while what happened to me was not. I learned that I am not alone.

I am so thankful for what has happened to me since I saw Into The Light. Right now, I am thankful; that after so many years, so many years, that I can live in a secret free home. A home where I can be; just me.

Thank you to all for attending tonight. For showing your support of men. For showing your support for menís healing. We canít do it alone. We need you to help us on our healing journey. To be there, for us. To hold us, to help us cry and say what needs to be said. To hear us, and not judge us for what happened to us. To believe us, and to believe in us. We CAN do this!

Thank you.

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My name is Jim
WoR Mysthaven 2008, Level 2 WoR Alta 2009, Kirkridge 2010, 2011, Oprah 200 men

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#312172 - 11/28/09 07:22 PM Re: The film I was apart of [Re: Geeders]
Jim1961 Offline
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Registered: 03/10/09
Posts: 1116
Loc: Pa, but likely traveling...
Jim,

WOW!!!

That's fantastic! As you often say to others, "Take a bow! You deserve it!"

smile

Jim

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Loneliness is a power that we possess to give or take away forever. -Yes, Starship Trooper

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#312180 - 11/28/09 09:16 PM Re: The film I was apart of [Re: Jim1961]
Casmir213 Offline
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Registered: 05/14/09
Posts: 845
Loc: Northeast, USA
Great story Jim,

You're definitely a brave man and a stand up guy to have made that speech. I'm glad your therapist made that suggestion to you and that you were able to find the courage to take her up on it. You have taken a big step in your recovery and are a great role model for guys like me.

All the best,

Rocco

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My avatar is the farmhouse at the Hope Spring, OH WoR. It's a nice place.

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