how I agree with getteddie, after 28 years of marriage to a woman who adores kids we have none, I have always avoided 1 to 1 contact with nephews and nieces, all kids.
I didn't trust myself, I had no Idea of my limits and control even though all my fantasies were / are about sex with another adult male I couldn't be sure that I wasn't really the perv'
This is probably the biggest fuck up in my life. And now, having sorted myself out some I can reflect on what might have been. Tonight we have been out with my brother in laws family and his 3 kids, all in their 20's. It makes me mad to have been forced to miss so much by my fears. Fears given me by some other bastards.
Go confidently in the direction of your dreams! Live the life you've imagined. As you simplify your life, the laws of the universe will be simpler.
Henry David Thoreau