how I agree with getteddie, after 28 years of marriage to a woman who adores kids we have none, I have always avoided 1 to 1 contact with nephews and nieces, all kids.
I didn't trust myself, I had no Idea of my limits and control even though all my fantasies were / are about sex with another adult male I couldn't be sure that I wasn't really the perv'
This is probably the biggest fuck up in my life. And now, having sorted myself out some I can reflect on what might have been. Tonight we have been out with my brother in laws family and his 3 kids, all in their 20's. It makes me mad to have been forced to miss so much by my fears. Fears given me by some other bastards.
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Go confidently in the direction of your dreams! Live the life you've imagined. As you simplify your life, the laws of the universe will be simpler.
Henry David Thoreau