No, no, no. The anti-d's are your gift right now. Work with them. Let them do their job. Your mood will lift and you'll be able to face some of your life-crap. Anti-d's do sometimes poop-out if you've been on them a LONG time, and then you have to shift to another one. Right now don't worry about the cloud of depression descending. Think about the cloud of fellowship, brotherhood, and support knowing that there are untold witnesses to your pain...we have the same pain...we all share the SAME pain. Sharing it reduces its power over us.
Don't be afraid. We are here with you.
With an embrace,