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#289539 - 05/30/09 06:40 PM lonelyness
myboyhoodfears Offline


Registered: 03/13/09
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a poem

Loneliness



Outside my back door a spider awaits his prey,

silently, longingly,

hoping for a catch.

Its been over two weeks now since i first spotted the glimmering silver threads

in the warm glow of the streetlight that stands beyond the parking lot.

Delicate and fascinating

the orb weavers web is,

a testimony to perseverance and purpose.

In the remote center of this brilliant contraption he waits.

looking at me,

with curious eyes, wondering what strange creature am i.

Loneliness, longingly, solitude in my silence.

The spider has me captive in his gaze and in his web of deceit.

Now, this night,

the wind blows in anticipation of rain, stretching and strumming

the strands of my tiny friends home in the eves,

the wind plays its sad song.

I strain to hear the music,

silent,

so lonely,

like the beating of a heart,

like the sound of my life, dancing in the wind.

Outside my back door, loneliness awaits,

longingly, solitude in my silence.

his silver trap is set,

I'm his prey.

His food for thought.

I am his and he is mine.

Lovers,

who never can love.











Edited by myboyhoodfears (06/13/09 03:33 PM)
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#290095 - 06/03/09 02:44 PM Re: lonelyness [Re: myboyhoodfears]
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The ending for your poem struck me:

Originally Posted By: myboyhoodfears
Lovers,
who never can love.

An especially painful form of loneliness, that's for sure. But was it love? Your father may have wanted you to believe it was, but can love exist where one partner's fulfillment requires the destruction of the other?

Just a thought.

Much love,
Larry

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#290144 - 06/03/09 09:31 PM Re: lonelyness [Re: roadrunner]
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Thank you for writing this.

I don't have much of a tongue for poetry, most writers are too cryptic and metaphoric in their language for me to grasp. But I think this is beautiful, mostly because I (sadly) share much of the same feelings, but also because what you say doesn't drift off too far in the ether-world of one's imagination. A perfect balance of de>

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#290162 - 06/03/09 11:06 PM Re: lonelyness [Re: roadrunner]
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Edited by myboyhoodfears (08/31/09 11:57 AM)
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#290419 - 06/05/09 04:03 PM Re: lonelyness [Re: myboyhoodfears]
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I see what you mean. I hope you will keep thinking about all this and posting on the site about it. Writing things down was so important to me as I struggled to figure out what had happened to me and what I needed to do about it.

Much love,
Larry

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#290427 - 06/05/09 06:08 PM Re: lonelyness [Re: roadrunner]
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Edited by myboyhoodfears (08/31/09 12:06 PM)
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