I feel the same way that you describe on most days, as I don't have a job/friend/partner either and the future doesn't seem bright for me, but I'm glad you posted your honest feelings even though I'm not glad you feel that you are alone. The good thing about this site though is that people can be alone together. So really since you have the ability to communicate with others through this site, so you're not totally alone. Yeah, I know it's not the same as what you're talking about though.
I see recovery as a lifelong journey rather than a final destination, a journey, though, which can have many successes along the way.
WoR Alumnus - Hope Springs, OH, October 2009
My avatar is the farmhouse at the Hope Spring, OH WoR. It's a nice place.