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#289095 - 05/27/09 02:42 PM no answers
MarkK Offline
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Registered: 04/02/07
Posts: 2502
Loc: Denver, CO
There is no comfort in life
        no softness in a pillow
        nor warmth in a quilt

Sleep does not give rest
        and activity does not bring peace

Every muscle
        every joint
        every nerve
        aches with a sadness too severe for words

Sorrow weighs down my soul
        like heavy dew to the tender shoot

Pain
        if it can be called pain
        for nowhere does it reside
        and nothing hurts
        yet everything suffers

I want to raise the drawbridge
        and keep myself safe
        isolated
        and alone

But fear attends my every moment
        his brother anguish beside
        and sister depression together

My spirit has no escape
        nor do I seek one

Though I make the movements
        of one searching
        in truth I do not look

For in seeking I might find
        and in finding realize
        I have no right to hurt
        in the first place

Surely I cannot maintain
        with a future so bleak
        and present so empty

Nor should I wish for such
        which leaves me with
        nothing


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the story
    https://1in6.org/men/bristlecone/mark-krueger/

Kirkridge - October 2008
Alta - September 2012
Alta - September 2013

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#289109 - 05/27/09 03:59 PM Re: no answers [Re: MarkK]
roadrunner Offline
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Registered: 05/02/05
Posts: 22045
Loc: Carlisle, PA
Mark,

If I saw you sitting on a bench in a park and knew you were writing this, I think I would just quietly sit down to let you know someone who knows is there.

Much love,
Larry

_________________________
Nobody living can ever stop me
As I go walking my freedom highway.
Nobody living can make me turn back:
This land was made for you and me.
(Woody Guthrie)

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#289116 - 05/27/09 04:20 PM Re: no answers [Re: roadrunner]
MarkK Offline
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Registered: 04/02/07
Posts: 2502
Loc: Denver, CO
Thanx, Larry,

Unfortunately, if I were sitting in a park right now and someone came and sat beside me, I'd be gone before they could utter their first word.

But the sentiment is nice.

M

_________________________
the story
    https://1in6.org/men/bristlecone/mark-krueger/

Kirkridge - October 2008
Alta - September 2012
Alta - September 2013

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