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#286903 - 05/09/09 08:27 PM New with questions
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Registered: 05/09/09
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Loc: illinois
I am sure that I was abused but I have no recolection. I was a very promiscuous boy and have kept that tradition alive into adulthood. I have often considered my promiscuity as an addiction. Anyone else have this issue? Is this a normal response?


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#286942 - 05/09/09 11:55 PM Re: New with questions [Re: Not for hire]
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Registered: 11/15/08
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Loc: Australia
Originally Posted By: Not for hire
I was a very promiscuous boy and have kept that tradition alive into adulthood.

Can I ask what age you are refering to as a boy?

You will read on this site how many survivors post of recalled memories and flashbacks.
There are some disassociation events in my past and can only remember parts
So in answer to your ? Yes itís possible to not remember being abused.
I too was promiscuous as a boy and each time was an abuse event - why? An 8-11 year old's body may react but their mind is not programmed to indulge in full on sexual activities, MB, oral or anal as was my experience.
Also was there an age difference, or power imbalance with your sex partners. There was in my case from 5-30 years age difference, and an older brother had the power so i would hide in a closit if he found me alone in the house.


Dusty



Edited by Dusty Boy (05/10/09 12:07 AM)

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#287204 - 05/12/09 01:23 PM Re: New with questions [Re: Dusty Boy]
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Registered: 05/09/09
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Loc: illinois
MB at age 9 or so. oral at age 11 and intercourse at 13


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#287216 - 05/12/09 04:19 PM Re: New with questions [Re: Not for hire]
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I was 41 before the memories of the actual abuse came to my memory. I was very sexually active as a boy. I have felt more serenity as I uncover the memories and have stopped acting out.

Some just like a lot of ex as my ex puts it.

Good Luck with your self-discovery.

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#287338 - 05/13/09 10:57 AM Re: New with questions [Re: DJsport]
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Registered: 11/15/08
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Loc: Australia
Not for Hire,

At age 9 to be promiscuous is a red light warning sign of acting out from CSA. Stick around read the posts you are not alone. Here no body will judge you.


Dusty


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#287352 - 05/13/09 03:54 PM Re: New with questions [Re: Dusty Boy]
Gus Bierer Offline
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Registered: 09/16/05
Posts: 160
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I was first molested at age 8 by a boy who was two yrs. older than me. This is when it started for me. I remember watching these men wrestlers, who had fat bellies like my first molester, and getting slightly turned on for the first time in my life.


I inturn played around in bed with my other two best friends, Donny and his brother Paul. We were just touching each other, it was just a game, there was no sexual emotional thing, we were buddies still after this thing, we didn't do it again the touching of body parts.

There were also 3 girls that either i initiated touching and kissing with, or they did with me. The whole thing with kids experimenting with kids seems like play to me. For them anyways. I don't mean to misunderstand how horrible it was for some kids, being violated by other kids, this is just my experience.


What was horrible for me is at age ten, being molested by my adoptive father for the next 7 yrs. It, the abuse caused so many problems for me through puberty and adolesence that i'm still screwed up over it, and i'm 41 now.


Today I guess i'm bi sexual, i'd rather have sex with women, but i relate better to gay men, it's confusing. Really though i don't even have sex with women that much. About once every two weeks i'll put on a little porn (men and women having sex) and masterbate.



Gus

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