Look buddy, Im not a fellow Marine but I do give a hoorah for a bunch of them and we get along OK. I notice you're in Colorado. I was born in Colorado and lived there as a kid. How is spring time in the Rockies; is it geting warm yet? I so miss the sound of the wind blowing through the aspens. I've read some of your posts and your story. You went through hell fire, Bro. Don't let those bastards who did this to you win. They are old and powerless now and hardly able to swallow a pill anymore. They are irrelevent to your ability to make it through this now. You are in charge, you are in command of this operation. Decide who you can trust - who is your ally and trust him. Call a chaplain at the closest post, he knows who you can trust. Your therapist is a good resource right now, too. Hang on tight and call for reinforcements, bro!
God is always faithful and so are you,
For God did not give us a spirit of timidity, but a spirit of power, love and self discipline. (St Paul, 2Timothy 1:7) NIV
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