Marvin, what happened was a crime and it was NOT ok. You are worth more than that and you should be treated better.
You should think about going to the doctors to get yourself checked out even if you don't want to report it to the police. Your health is important. You need to find a way out of that situation, i like the quote in your signature line by Harvey Fierstein, i hope that you find encouragement in that. Whilst you are in active abuse it will be difficult for you to work on the emotional affects of all this. I want you to be safe Marvin, is there anybody you can trust who can help you to get out of the situation? anybody close to you that you can confide in?
"...until lambs become lions"
I love you, little lewis, and i will never leave you. We are the same. You brighten my day, and i will make sure that i brighten yours. Hugs and kisses.