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#284868 - 04/22/09 12:59 AM What I Was Feeling
Marinan Offline
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"NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO"


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#286658 - 05/07/09 09:01 PM Re: What I Was Feeling [Re: Marinan]
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Loc: Carlisle, PA
Marinan,

There's a word that says it all. But I don't think I ever said it. It died in my throat so many times, but I don't think I ever said it.

Much love,
Larry

_________________________
Nobody living can ever stop me
As I go walking my freedom highway.
Nobody living can make me turn back:
This land was made for you and me.
(Woody Guthrie)

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#286659 - 05/07/09 09:06 PM Re: What I Was Feeling [Re: roadrunner]
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***** possible triggers *****

Marinan,

I thought you would appreciate this thought from a young survivor I work with. He was 13 when he wrote this:

No! I wish I could say it out loud. Scream it. The magic word. "No." But instead I go limp. I disappear. I'm on the other side of that picture. Safe. Because in that picture I'm still a little kid and I'm still smiling. Protected by glass.

"Are you listening? Are you listening bitch?"

"No daddy, I can't hear you."

"Relax and you won't feel a thing."

Bruises where no one will ever find them. My shell breaking like it's made out of plaster. Hollow inside. No thoughts, nothing.


Much love,
Larry

_________________________
Nobody living can ever stop me
As I go walking my freedom highway.
Nobody living can make me turn back:
This land was made for you and me.
(Woody Guthrie)

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