today was a very bad day for him his night mares are getting worse and no one seems to care about it. he tells them that he is having a hard time with it and they just tell him to take a vistaril. they dont evenask him what they are about . he want to die today...said if he was out he would have tried to , thye do not provide individual councling just classes like how to deal with depression in the modern world and all it does is descuse the scientific reasons of depression and his other class is how to control impulses. they dont even have him in a support group of anykind. there is one and he tries to go when they have it anyway, but so far just the 2 classes is all they want him to go to and the rest of the day is just sitting around watching the other patients.

also i wanted to let you know that i do not look at anyother posts or messages that is not posted under the ones i post i dont want anyone to feel like i am intruding. i just want to let you guys know whats going on.

thanks again

Just keep telling them the help you want...you never know, it may sink in...and you should read the other posts, you never know if there is something there you can use. I'm sorry you are in so much pain right now.

I pray that he feels better. It is good that you can relay messages to him, I wiish there was more I could say. I love everyone that comes to this site, we were all hurt as children or men. James I feel for ya.

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Jokersloose...I pray for your return to the chat, cuz that means you are home and ok. We need you, your family needs you, you are strong and courageous. I need you to go hunting for perps...remember? Be well soon.

Show James this for me...if you can find the song on a tape or CD, play it for him when you can...

CHIQUITITA
ABBA
(B.Andersson/B.Ulvaeus)
First release 1979
Chiquitita, tell me what's wrong
You're enchained by your own sorrow
In your eyes there is no hope for tomorrow
How I hate to see you like this
There is no way you can deny it
I can see that you're oh so sad, so quiet

Chiquitita, tell me the truth
I'm a shoulder you can cry on
Your best friend, I'm the one you must rely on
You were always sure of yourself
Now I see you've broken a feather
I hope we can patch it up together

Chiquitita, you and I know
How the heartaches come and they go and the scars they're leaving
You'll be dancing once again and the pain will end
You will have no time for grieving
Chiquitita, you and I cry
But the sun is still in the sky and shining above you
Let me hear you sing once more like you did before
Sing a new song, Chiquitita
Try once more like you did before
Sing a new song, Chiquitita

So the walls came tumbling down
And your love's a blown out candle
All is gone and it seems too hard to handle
Chiquitita, tell me the truth
There is no way you can deny it
I see that you're oh so sad, so quiet

Chiquitita, you and I know
How the heartaches come and they go and the scars they're leaving
You'll be dancing once again and the pain will end
You will have no time for grieving
Chiquitita, you and I cry
But the sun is still in the sky and shining above you
Let me hear you sing once more like you did before
Sing a new song, Chiquitita
Try once more like you did before
Sing a new song, Chiquitita
Try once more like you did before
Sing a new song, Chiquitita

James,

I am sorry to hear how hard things are for you right now. You are atrong enough to get through this also. Your brothers miss you and are praying for your healing. We want to joker back in our chat room. you have many more friends than you may realize and obviously a wife who loves you very much.

You will make it through this time because you are a survivor, we are tough and we make it. I am looking forward to chatting with you again soon.

Your friend

Ken