Thankyou for your input. I understand what you are saying, the intentions behind his words come from a good place.
Its just hard for me to understand why he can't seem to accept that I WANT to be with him, and that I'm not going to leave unless The Lord gives me the conviction in my heart that it would be best to end the relationship. (Maybe that sounds crazy?)
I know, regardless of what the reason may be, we all try to shield the people we love from being hurt. But pushing me away in order to shield me from ANYTHING would hurt a great deal more than allowing me to be there and stand by him through whatever he (and we) may face.
I have read that some victims of abuse often feel like damaged goods, worthless, tainted...
and that breaks my heart! I wish there was some way, some words, heck anything I could do or say to make my partner believe that he is nothing short of perfect and amazing and inspiring to me. I realise that abuse affects people in ways that I can't even begin to comprehend, but it doesn't define who you are as a person!
Peace and love