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#281850 - 04/01/09 07:38 PM so its not my fault
sportinrucks Offline
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Registered: 10/01/04
Posts: 422
Loc: Louisiana
Its not my fault, so why am I isolated, why am I so depressed, why am I not fuctioning properly, why do I have trouble with other people, why am I struggling to get out of bed every morning? Why do I keep falling victim or feel like Im being re-victimized, why do I experience rejection so much I am afraid to open up and lend out a hand. Why am I in emotional hell?


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#281859 - 04/01/09 08:58 PM Re: so its not my fault [Re: sportinrucks]
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Registered: 08/03/07
Posts: 241
Loc: NYC
Us survivors know a secret most people don't, or refuse to believe. The world isn't fair. Horrific things happen to good people. There's nothing you can do except fight against all the evil that's been done to you. We have to escape our emotional hell one day at a time. I wish you luck and happiness.


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#281861 - 04/01/09 08:59 PM Re: so its not my fault [Re: sportinrucks]
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Registered: 05/02/05
Posts: 22045
Loc: Carlisle, PA
Alex,

You are having all those difficulties because, like so many other guys, abuse has left you with a ton of conflicted and negative feelings about yourself. But are those feelings true? Look at all the times a guy may feel guilty about something, but in fact has done nothing wrong.

A good parallel would be a traffic accident in which you are hit by another car and the other driver is clearly and obviously to blame. You are still affected. You are still injured. Your car is still totaled. You still lost a lot of time off work. But does all that make the accident your fault? Nope.

Much love,
Larry

_________________________
Nobody living can ever stop me
As I go walking my freedom highway.
Nobody living can make me turn back:
This land was made for you and me.
(Woody Guthrie)

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#281862 - 04/01/09 08:59 PM Re: so its not my fault [Re: sportinrucks]
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Registered: 05/30/08
Posts: 359
Loc: Lake Forest, CA
I wish I had answers for you beyond wondering if you are in therapy. Because trying to deal with the fall out from what we we went through cannot be adequately addressed without professional help,

We suffer from Post Traumatic Stress Disorder. Just as much as if we had witnessed combat. And simply addressing it on a website or with people who will support you but are not professionals will do little to address the root causes.

The work is long and painful. But I promise you that if you work at it, IT WILL GET BETTER! You don't have to be a slave of the past forever.

Perhaps you can share with us what action(s) you are taken or have taken in a professional environment to help with these fears and pain?

Paul

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Tinman
"I finally have my heart!"

To the perps: Don't worry about me coming after you. But you damn well better watch out for God! "Vengeance is mine", saith the Lord

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#281871 - 04/01/09 10:30 PM Re: so its not my fault [Re: Tinman]
sportinrucks Offline
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Registered: 10/01/04
Posts: 422
Loc: Louisiana
It is so good to go home and chat with people who actually understand


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#282384 - 04/05/09 03:38 PM Re: so its not my fault [Re: sportinrucks]
sportinrucks Offline
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Registered: 10/01/04
Posts: 422
Loc: Louisiana
being in the military didnt help either


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