Xenonman - I'm also sorry for what that Perp did to you. He was 16 but sexually offended you; perhaps even groomed and set you up for this act! It's sad how these traumas "screw with our minds" for years afterward!! I'm glad, however, you had the courage to get that horror out here and the strength to not keep that "crap" stinking inside!! The more we talk out the hurts, pains and traumas then we won't act them out (ie. alcohol, drugs, food, sex/porn addictions, gender confusion, shame, guilt, self image issues, trust and control issues, etc.).
Keep on the journey, brother, the journey gets easier after a while and life definitely gets better!!
If you think you can or you can't - you're right!.......anon
It's never too late to have a happy childhood!.....anon
You're very normal for the abnormal situation you've been through..............S. Todd