nahuel, what a beautiful name....what does it mean?
you are doing just great with your english!
welcome to the organization! so glad you that you found us, though not for the circumstances that brought you here.
i have done this all my life. everytime i had gotten involved in a relationship i get the sense that i am imprisoned. i mean, i would go to any lengths to 'catch' a partner, but then once in a relationship with them, i would go to any lengths to avoid them. first it's 'touch me, touch me!" then it's 'don't do that'. how crazy that must seem to someone who has not been abused.
but here we are today, stuck with the results of having had a 'relationship' imposed on us by someone who could not care less about us, or our boundaries.
they just came in close as close can be, and gave us no option for refusing them. we were forced to comply.
and now, everytime we get into a relationship today, we re-enact our role for the relationship set up by the abuser.
so, even though we know our current partners are not trying to force us; they just have no idea that they are being mistaken for another person, the perp.
learning how to work through those kinds of questions is why many of us are here.
since you've just joined us, maybe think about telling us more about yourself and post your story in the survivors stories