Jim,

Three weeks ans still going thanks to the guys here. Thu just masturbating is getting to be a tempting idea. But so far have reframe from doing so.

Mike

Hi Mike,

Three weeks! You gotta be proud of that!!

In your post on march 23 you commented on what would replace the porn when you got off it. Well the first part of the post you said that attraction to your wife was increasing. I reckon thats your answer.

Jethro

Sounded like you might be telling me part of my story. I can really understand. I know how hard it is to be tied to sex with myself. I have an incredible wife who knows me and my story. We have be togrther of 20+ years. I have no idea what she sees in me that I can't see myself. I have worked hard and prayed. Massturbation is still a god as is porn. I was cutting down a lot until my wife mastubated me in sex. I relived the past and now both of my gods are back. All I can do is pray and ask I friend to do that for me. CSA has screwed up my life forever. But the thing I don't get is why I feel sorry for the pervs? Especially the one that screwed me up!
Mike, thanks for getting me back into the real world again. I will explain that one latter.

Weird as this may sound, I went a few days off without masturbating. I was using porn too much for my liking, and my fantasies are women centered, but occasionally something will pop in that will distract me. Sometimes it'll be an image of two guys having sex, or me having sex with another guy. That instantly kills it for me and ruins the session. That used to happen to me a lot when I was younger with like old people popping into my head or imagining something religious naked in the middle of my masturbating. Kind of intrusive thoughts, they used to kill the moment and then even if I put them out of my head they would always keep popping up at the worst times.


Well I went a few days without, and today I figured I would revert to the age where I was just discovering all this masturbating and what not, so today when I got off I did it with the mindset of an 11 year old, and it felt so much more fulfilling and healthier. First because I was in the mood for it instead of just feeling like I had to do it because I was bored or something, and if felt like I was reclaiming something that I lost. I do keep having these frequent intrusive thoughts though, and I often times try to entertain them, which kills my fantasies, confuses me, and then leaves me feeling depressed and empty after orgasm. It's fucked.