I, luckily, have one brother, (L) who knows & believes it. But I was extreamly afraid I'd lose/distroy our friendship. I have another brother, (J) who I don't dare tell, I tried once when I was 16 and he denounced me as a lier. We don't get along very well to this day, (18+ yrs later). He refused to believe Dad (now dead) was/is a Monster. Just seeing a picture of Dad makes me feel sick. Things between J and I are...strained. I put up with him because I don't want to lose contact with his daughter, my niece! But J is an ASS, and I do NOT trust that son of a Bastard Monster. I so much want to tell him to "F--- Off and Die You lousy Piece of S---!"
If the inability to sleep could be captured & there was a market, i bet most of us would be rich men.