http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=y7HmP_p03eg

Lifeline Chorus by Papa Roach

I've been looking for a lifeline
for what seems like a lifetime
I'm drowning in the pain
breaking down again
looking for a lifeline


Is there anybody out there?
Can you pull me from this ocean of despair?
I'm drowning in the pain
breaking down again
looking for a lifeline

thanks for sharing this song.

I can totally relate to this song.

may trigger***


Crawling Linkin Park

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=W0EEdjA9m30

Crawling in my skin
These wounds they will not heal
Fear is how I fall
Confusing what is real

There's something inside me that pulls beneath the surface
Consuming/confusing
This lack of self-control I fear is never ending
Controlling/I can't seem

[Bridge:]
To find myself again
My walls are closing in
(without a sense of confidence and I'm convinced that there's just too much pressure to take)
I've felt this way before
So insecure

[Chorus]

Discomfort,endlessly has pulled itself upon me
Distracting/reacting
Against my will I stand beside my own reflection
It's haunting how I can't seem...

Easier To Run

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cCgbFh5XfSU

It's easier to run
Replacing this pain with something numb
It's so much easier to go
Than face all this pain here all alone

Something has been taken
From deep inside of me
A secret I've kept locked away
No one can ever see
Wounds so deep they never show
They never go away
Like moving pictures in my head
For years and years they've played

If I could change I would
Take back the pain I would
Retrace every wrong move that I made I would
If I could take all the shame to the grave I would

Sometimes I remember
The darkness of my past
Bringing back these memories
I wish I didn't have
Sometimes I think of letting go
And never looking back
And never moving forward so
There would never be a past

Just washing it aside
All of the helplessness inside
Pretending I don't feel misplaced
Is so much simpler than change

It's easier to run replacing this pain with something numb
It's so much easier to go
Than face all this pain here all alone

...

The video that goes with this song may trigger so watch with caution.

I Want To Be Loved Bon Jovi

I Want To Be Loved lyrics

I had a roof overhead
Had shoes on my feet
Sure I was fed, but no-one was there
When I was in need, yeah

So who am I now?
Who do you want me to be?
I can forgive you, but I won't relive you
I aint the same scared kid I used to be

[Chorus]
I'm gonna live
I'm gonna survive
Don't want the world to pass me by
I'm gonna dream
I aint gonna die
Thinking my life was just a lie
I wanna be loved
I wanna be loved

I found a picture
Our so-called family tree, yeah
I broke all the branches, looking for answers
Don't you know that aint how it's supposed to be

[Chorus]
I'm gonna live
I'm gonna survive
Don't want the world to pass me by
I'm gonna dream
I ain't gonna die
Thinking my life was just a lie
I wanna give
I'm ready to try
Willing to lay it on the line
I wanna be loved
I wanna be

I aint gonna cry
I dont wanna scream
But i got so much left unsaid inside of me

[Chorus]

I just wanna be loved
I wanna be loved

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tw1Zvq_ZRaE&feature=related

Hi,

The lyrics of these songs are pretty heavy and obviously de>

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yqrYDiUZCLA

Illusion by Creed

The sun rises to another day
My constitution keeps changing
'Til it slips away
So I lie awake and stare
My mind thinking, just wandering
Is anybody there?
Should I stay or go

Should I sleep or stay awake
Am I really happy or is it all
Just an illusion

Sitting in my room now
Hiding thoughts
Just hoping one day I'll get out
I hear a voice call my name
Breaking trance, so silent
So I can stay the same

Should I stay or go
Should I sleep or stay awake
Am I really happy or is it all
Just an illusion

[Guitar Break]

Wait now, many things left unsaid
This life remains the same
But I change
I try to fool myself in believing
Things are going to get better
But life goes on

Should I stay or go
Should I sleep or stay awake
Am I really happy or is it all
Just an illusion
Just an Illusion
Just an illusion
Just an illusion
Just an illusion
Just an illusion
Just an illusion

"Open Wounds" Skillet

In the dark with the music on
Wishing I was somewhere else
Taking all your anger out on me, somebody help
I would rather rot alone
Then spend a minute with you
I'm gone, I'm gone

And you can't stop me from falling apart
'Cause my self-destruction is all your fault

[Chorus]
How could you, how could you, how could you hate me?
When all I ever wanted to be was you?
How could you, how could you, how could you love me?
When all you ever gave me were open wounds?

Downstairs the enemy sleeps
Leaving the TV on
Watching all the dreams we had turn into static
Doesn't matter what I do
Nothing's gonna change
I'm never good enough

And you can't stop me from falling apart
'Cause my self-destruction is all your fault

[Chorus]

Tell me why you broke me down and betrayed my trust in you
I'm not giving up, giving in when will this war end?
When will it end??

You can't stop me from falling apart [3X]
'Cause my self-destruction is all your fault.

[Chorus]

SKILLET ROCKS!!!
This song is from their album entitled Collide. Their new album COMATOSE is full of EXCELLENT music!!

SKILLET is touring the country now with their Comatose Tour. See 'em live and in person if at all possible. If not they just came out with a live concert video. SKILLET will rock your face off!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

OK..........I admit it I'm a "panhead"

Behindthewall, Thanks for posting the lyrics to this great song - you rock, bro!!

Peace,
Shadow+Walker

It's rainy and cold where I am which doesn't really help today. A song that fits today, and many others raining or not, is In a Lonely Place by New Order, originally by Joy Division. I have yet to see the Ian Curtis biopic, but I hope to when it's released on DVD.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iFteKByG5Q4

I know it is kind of gloomy so take a listen if you are up for it.

Anouk - Time is a Jailer

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wRSa7gDXfDU

No one can hear me, 'cause no one is around
But I still hear your whisper in the dark
I know I can go, I know I can leave whenever I please
But time is a jailer for me
A face in the window, looking inside
But no one else sees it, I know
And now that you've found that the years have changed
What the ending will be
Time's just a jailer for me

I shut out the light
Alone in the dark
This time of night
Is the hardest part

Now that you've found that the years have changed
What the ending will be
Time's just a jailer for me

I still hear your whisper, your heels on the floor
I wait for the sound of your key in the door
But it's only the sound of nothing at all and so it must be
That time is a jailer for me

It's only the sound of nothing at all and so it must be
Time is a jailer for me

Time's just a jailer for me
Time is a jailer for me

Anouk - Ball and Chain

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Yqt4Hhw8H0o

I know the drill
you got your ball and chain
Hold you down
the circle round the story stays the same
It wont be long
and then your heart is frozen
The time is coming
to break away

You got it all
What makes you hestitate
Dont just wait
for things to blow up in your pretty face
And if the way
you try not to let it slip away
And you may find yourself again

And I feel
People just dont know you
Like I do
When they making it
so hard to see
When there's something wrong
It goes on and on

I know the drill
you got your ball and chain
I found out the second
round that somethings never change
Open my eyes
and let the days come over me
Maybe it will go away

And I feel
People just dont know you
Like I do
When you're making it
so hard to see
When there's something wrong
on and on and on
you'll see
Now everybody is here
to break your heart
So there is a price to pay
To be someone you're not

Broken Wings

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QmIv8jfVEwQ

From loss into your embrace
I fled the fear and the dark of day
Like an angel of fallen grace
My broken wings can't hold my weight
I came so close that I felt the flames
I came so close that I'll never be safe again
I'd give anything to find a way to leave the fear and evacuate

Come reach inside my inner fear
Come feel my sorrow and my tears
My broken wings can't hold my weight
through the dark of day

Leave that guilt-stained cross behind
Free your arms do it one by one
It's not your fault you are not to blame
Your wing-clipped past should not bring you shame
And the years that you still endured
should work as strength to see past it all

Come reach inside my inner fear
Come feel my sorrow and my tears
My broken wings can't hold my weight
through the dark of day
All hope's been burnt to ashes
And I'm so tired of hiding the bruises
My broken wings can't take me
through the dark of day

Deep cuts will not help you heal
The pain inflicted's just false relief
Precious moments where you can dream
of a day when you too can feel

Come reach inside my inner fear
Come feel my sorrow and my tears
My broken wings can't hold my weight
through the dark of day

I'm Still Here - Vertical Horizon

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=G8IgoZ-KHiI&feature=related

I found the pieces in my hand
They were always there
It just took some time for me to understand
You gave me words I just can't say
So if nothing else
I'll just hold on while you drift away
Cause everything you wanted me to hide
Is everything that makes me feel alive

Cities grow
Rivers flow
Where you are, I'll never know
But I'm still here
If you were right and I was wrong
Why are you the one that's gone
I'm still here
Still here

Seeing the ashes in my heart
The smile the widest
When I cry inside and my insides blow apart
I tried to wear another face
Just to make you proud
Just to make you put me in my place
But everything you wanted to take from me
Is everything that I could never be

Cities grow
Rivers flow
Where you are, I'll never know
But I'm still here
If you were right and I was wrong
Why are you the one that's gone
I'm still here

Maybe tonight
It's gonna be alright
I will get better
Maybe today
It's gonna be okay
I will remember

I held the pieces of my soul
I was shattered and I wanted you to come and make me whole
When I saw you yesterday
But you didn't notice
You just walked away
Cause everything you wanted me to hide
Is everything that makes me feel alive

Cities grow
Rivers flow
Where you are, I'll never know
But I'm still here
If you were right and I was wrong
Why are you the one who's gone
And I'm still here
The lights go out, the bridges burn
Once you're gone, you can't return
I'm still here
Remember how you used to say I'd be the one to run away
But I'm still here
Still here

Save Me....Damageplan

Save me from myself I call out
But no one hears my plea
Burn my candle fast from both ends
Nightmares grow from dreams

You don't know, you can't see through my eyes
So you don't know me
You don't know what's going through my mind
But can you help me

Save me from myself if you ever really cared
Save me from myself, tell me you're not scared

Intensity that grows within me
Reflections of my pain
I'll create or I'll destroy
But either way it's always in my veins

You don't know, you can't see through my eyes
So you don't know me
You don't know what's going through my mind
But can you help me

Save me from myself if you ever really cared
Save me from myself, tell me you're not scared

Save me from myself, if you ever really cared
Save me from myself, tell me you're not scared

Save me from myself, if you ever really cared
Save me from myself, tell me you're not scared

Save me from myslef, if you ever really cared
Save me from myself, tell me you're not scared

Save me... from me... x5

Save me....x 2

Save me... from me

Save me....

For You....Staind

To my mother, to my father,
It's your son or it's your daughter,
Are my screams loud enough for you to hear me?
Should I turn this up for you?

I sit here locked inside my head
Remembering everything you've said
This silence gets us nowhwere!
Gets us nowhere way too fast!

The silence is what kills me
I need someone here to help me
But you don't know how to listen
And let me make my decisions

I sit here locked
inside my head remembering everything you've said
The silence gets us nowhere!
Gets us nowhere way too fast!

All your insults and your curses make
me feel like I'm not a person
And I feel like I am nothing but
you made me so do something
'Cause I'm fucked up because you are
Need attention, attention you couldn't give

'Cause I sit here locked inside my head
Remembering everything you've said
This silence get us nowhere!
Gets us nowhere way to fast

When it feels to me that recovery is just too much work, that it takes too much time and may not even be worth the effort in the end result, the lyrics of this song always pull me out of the swamp and set me back on my feet - then I journey on some more...

Grow up - simply plan

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uBHl76NE_Yw

There are days I want to feel 16 again even thou I'm 16 I don't feel like it. This song makes me feel like I'm 16 again.

This is who I am
and this is what I like
GC, Sum and Blink and Mxpx rocking my room
if your looking for me
I'll be at the show
I could never find a better place to go

Until the day I die I promise I won't change
so you better give up
I don't wanna be told to grow up
and I don't wanna change
I just wanna have fun
I don't wanna be told to grow up
and I don't wanna change
so you better give up
cause I'm not gonna change
I don't wanna grow up

I like to stay up late
spend hours on the phone
hanging out with all my friends
and never being at home
I'm impolite and I make fun of everyone
I'm immature but I will stay this way forever

Until the day I die I promise I won't change
so you better give up
I don't wanna be told to grow up
and I don't wanna change
I just wanna have fun
I don't wanna be told to grow up
and I don't wanna change
so you better give up
cause I'm not gonna change
I don't wanna grow up

I don't wanna be told to grow up (grow up, grow up)
I don't wanna be told to grow up (grow up, grow up)

I don't wanna be told to grow up
and I don't wanna change
I just wanna have fun
I don't wanna be told to grow up
and I don't wanna change
so you better give up
I don't wanna be told to grow up
and I don't wanna change
I just wanna have fun
I don't wanna be told to grow up
And I don't want to change
So you better give up
No I don't want to change
So you better give up
Cause I'm not gonna change
I don't wanna grow up!

Hell and Consequences

I’m not a victim,
till I let you take me down.
Im not a target at the sites of your mercy,
I never asked for anything,
Im not asking now.
I will not be afraid,
I will not be afraid.

Ive done this on my own
and I don’t care what you do to me,
I woulnt hand over what is mine
Ive done this for too long,
to let you take it away from me,
its to late to stop me
cause I refuse to die.

I havent weakened just because ive shown my self
ive taken everything, except everything that’s forgranted
I'll leave hypocrisy for everybody else
I will not be afraid
I will not be afraid,

Ive done this on my own
and I don’t care what you do to me,
I woulnt hand over what is mine
Ive done this for too long,
to let you take it away from me,
its to late to stop me
cause I refuse to die.

I’m not a problem
untill you make one out of spite
Ill give you hell and consequences for trying,
don’t want an enemy,
DON’T FUCK WITH MY LIFE

I will not be afraid,
I will not be afraid,

Ive done this on my own
and I don’t care what you do to me,
I woulnt hand over what is mine
Ive done this for too long,
to let you take it away from me,
its to late to stop me
cause I refuse to die.

Ive done this on my own
and I don’t care what you do to me,
I woulnt hand over ,
I woulnt hand over what is mine
Ive done this for too long,
to let you take it away from me,
its to late to stop me
cause I refuse
I refuse…... to die.
I refuse to die!

All Nightmare Long Metallica

One, two

Luck. Runs. Out.

Crawl from the wreckage one more time
Horrific memory twists the mind
Dark, rugged, cold and hard to turn
Path of destruction, feel it burn

Still life, incarnation
Still life, infamy
Hallucination
Heresy
Still you run, what's to come?
What's to be?

[Chorus:]
'cause we hunt you down without mercy
Hunt you down all nightmare long
Feel us breathe upon your face
Feel us shift, every move we trace
Hunt you down without mercy
Hunt you down all nightmare long, yeah
Luck runs out
You crawl back in
But your luck runs out

One, two

Luck. Runs. Out.

The light that is not light is here
To flush you out with your own fear
You hide, you hide, but will be found
Release your grip without a sound

Still life, immolation
Still life, infamy
Hallucination
Heresy
Still you run, what's to come?
What's to be?

[Chorus]

One, two, three, four

Then you crawl back in
Into your obsession
Never to return
This is your confession

Hunt you down without mercy
Hunt you down all nightmare long
Feel us breathe upon your face
Feel us shift, every move we trace
Hunt you down without mercy
Hunt you down all nightmare long, yeah
Luck runs out
You crawl back in
But your luck runs out

Your luck runs out

The Day That Never Comes

Born to push you around
Better just stay down
You pull away,
He hits the flesh,
You hit the ground

Mouth's so full of lies
Tend to black your eyes
Just keep them closed,
Keep praying,
Just keep waiting

[Chorus:]
Waiting for the one
The day that never comes
When you stand up and feel the warmth
But the sunshine never comes
No, the sunshine never comes

Push you cross that line
Just stay down this time
Hide in yourself,
Crawl in yourself,
You'll have your time

God, I'll make them pay
Take it back one day
I'll end this day,
I'll splatter color on this grey

[Chorus]

Love is a four letter word
And never spoken here
Love is a four letter word
Here in this prison
I suffer this no longer
I put an end to...
This I swear!
This I swear!
The sun will shine
This I swear!
This I swear!
This I swear!

(((((Jesse)))))
BTW, I'm liking the avatar

Worse day ever

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=D06FZKjEblQ


And I feel like I'm living the worst day
over and over again.
And I feel like the summer is leaving again.
I feel like I'm living the worst day.
I feel like you're gone.
And every day is the worst day ever.

Yesterday was the worst day ever.
And tomorrow won't be better.
It's history repeating on and on.

Confession (what's Inside My Head) lyrics

I feel fine
And I can smile
But I feel the anger coming
Its underneath
I don’t know why
Its always overflowing
Justify
Deep inside
And I want to forget it

(Chorus)
I confess
I’m always afraid
Always ashamed of what’s inside me
I confess
I’m always afraid
Always ashamed of what’s inside my head

And I can breath
And I still feel
But not the way I want to
On the edge
Don’t know how
I can escape this nightmare

(Chorus)
I confess
I’m always afraid
Always ashamed of what’s inside me
I confess
I’m always afraid
Always ashamed of what’s inside my head

Wasting away
Its part of my instinct
I’ll run away
And everything I hate
Take this away
And help me escape
Take this away
I confess

(Screaming)
Innocence
Innocence
Innocence

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wPl1c-VDszE

Thanks for sharing that Jesse

You Found Me - The Fray

I found God on the corner of 1st and Amistad
Where the West was all but won
All alone, smoking his last cigarette
I said, "Where you been?" He said, "Ask anything"

Where were you when everything was falling apart?
All my days were spent by the telephone that never rang
And all I needed was a call that never came
To the corner of 1st and Amistad

Lost and insecure, you found me, you found me
Lying on the floor surrounded, surrounded
Why'd you have to wait? Where were you? Where were you?
Just a little late, you found me, you found me

But in the end everyone ends up alone
Losing her, the only one who's ever known
Who I am, who I'm not and who I wanna be
No way to know how long she will be next to me

Lost and insecure, you found me, you found me
Lying on the floor surrounded, surrounded
Why'd you have to wait? Where were you? Where were you?
Just a little late, you found me, you found me!

The early morning, the city breaks
And I've been calling for years and years and years and years
And you never left me no messages
You never sent me no letters
You got some kind of nerve taking all I want!

Lost and insecure, you found me, you found me
Lying on the floor, where were you? Where were you?

Lost and insecure, you found me, you found me
Lying on the floor surrounded, surrounded
Why'd you have to wait? Where were you? Where were you?
Just a little late, you found me, you found me!

Why'd you have to wait to find me, to find me?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H9hUZ41tdp4

Whataya Want From Me

Hey, slow it down whataya want from me
Whataya want from me
Yeah I’m afraid whataya want from me
Whataya want from me

There might have been a time
And I would give myself away
Oooh once upon a time I didn’t give a damn
But now, here we are so whataya want from me
Whataya want from me

Just don’t give up I’m workin it out
Please don’t give in, I won’t let you down
It messed me up, need a second to breathe
Just keep coming around
Hey, whataya want from me
Whataya want from me
Whataya want from me

Yeah, it’s plain to see (plain to see)
that baby you’re beautiful
And it’s nothing wrong with you
(nothing wrong with you)
It’s me, I’m a freak (yeah)
but thanks for lovin’ me
Cause you’re doing it perfectly
(it perfectly)

There might have been a time
When I would let you step away
I wouldn’t even try
But I think you could save my life

Just don’t give up I’m workin’ it out
Please don’t give in, I won’t let you down
It messed me up, need a second to breathe
Just keep comin around
Hey, whataya want from me (Whataya want from me)
Whataya want from me (Whataya want from me)

Just don’t give up on me
(uuuuuuh) I won’t let you down
No, I won’t let you down

(So I) just don’t give up
I’m workin it out
Please don’t give in,
I won’t let you down
It messed me up (It messed me up)
Need a second to breathe
Just keep coming around
Hey, whataya want from me

Just don’t give up I’m workin’ it out
Please don’t give in, i won’t let you down
It messed me up, need a second to breathe
Just keep coming around
Hey, whataya want from me (whataya want from me)
whataya want from me (whataya want from me)
whataya want from me

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Kmc0FnVnhsM&feature=related

I have two songs that, to me, express my life.

3 Days Grace - Pain & Metallica - Thee Unforgiven

Thee Unforgiven really was like the story of my life!