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#272506 - 01/24/09 08:59 PM Abandoned
lars3229 Offline
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Registered: 12/03/08
Posts: 800
Loc: Iowa
This doesn't really reflect any current feelings, but rather addresses the annoying panic and anxiety attacks that seem to hit me every few days lately. Just wanted to share it.

Abandoned,
Alone
Falling into
despair

My heart
Is torn
Nothing is
Left there

Crying,
Dying
This storm
Will not pass

All alone
Myself
Looking in
A glass

Booze, drugs
Acting out
Nothing ever
Works

Just can’t
Seem to
Eliminate my
Quirks

Trying hard
To ignore
What makes me
Shake

Wish I
Knew what
Healing would
Take

Someday
I know
All will be
Well

Til then
I must go
Through this
Living hell

-- Lars3229
January 2009

_________________________
You may trod me
in the very dirt
But still,
like dust,
I'll rise.

-Maya Angelou

"I quite often remember to forget these sorts of things."
-Winnie the Pooh, The Tigger Movie

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#272508 - 01/24/09 09:06 PM Re: Abandoned [Re: lars3229]
michael banks Offline


Registered: 06/12/08
Posts: 1755
Loc: Mojave Desert, Ca
Lars,

You truely have a way with words.
Thanks for sharing your poem with us.

Mike



Edited by michael banks (01/24/09 09:06 PM)
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#272516 - 01/24/09 09:38 PM Re: Abandoned [Re: michael banks]
Geeders Offline
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Registered: 09/03/08
Posts: 1901
Loc: Peterborough, Ontario, Canada
(K)

It will get better. Been there. Anticpate being there again, although I hope not soon. It will get better. Are you in T yet? It might help, although I was in T when my last bout hit. Its not you per se. Its the process. It hurts like hell. I hear you.

Jim

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#272660 - 01/26/09 12:59 AM Re: Abandoned [Re: Geeders]
G5 Offline
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Registered: 01/12/04
Posts: 203
Loc: New Jersey
reminds me of something I wrote.....i will share it soon.

yours brought some tears to my eyes....

Chris

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#272665 - 01/26/09 02:43 AM Re: Abandoned [Re: G5]
petercorbett Offline
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Registered: 07/27/08
Posts: 2435
Loc: TEXAS
Great poem, feelings straight from the very depths of your soul.
Quite often I have the same feelings, as I know that we all do. The pains get unbearable at times. "we must go through this living hell". Abandoned.

But for me, being right here, HOME. Right here with my brothers/friends I know that I will not be ABANDONED.

Heal well Lars, and all posted above, and my brothers/friends.

Pete (Irishmoose)

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Hope Springs, 2010.


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#272682 - 01/26/09 08:51 AM Re: Abandoned [Re: lars3229]
joelRT Offline
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Registered: 09/11/08
Posts: 1357
Loc: Québec, Canada
Originally Posted By: lars3229

Someday
I know
All will be
Well

I forced myself to believe that for the last twenty three years - it' the only thing that kept me tru to my conviction and that made me stay the course, I now know better.

As much as I've accomplished is as far as I'll ever go...............

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#272685 - 01/26/09 09:20 AM Re: Abandoned [Re: joelRT]
nathan555 Offline


Registered: 01/06/09
Posts: 230
Loc: Australia
Joel
we can't do it on our own
we need God's help
it's AA's fundamental principal - a higher power

walk with God man

I speak out of my struggle
but for His rope I would have drowned in my mud

please Joel

Nathan


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#272687 - 01/26/09 09:31 AM Re: Abandoned [Re: nathan555]
joelRT Offline
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Registered: 09/11/08
Posts: 1357
Loc: Québec, Canada
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#272695 - 01/26/09 09:55 AM Re: Abandoned [Re: joelRT]
nathan555 Offline


Registered: 01/06/09
Posts: 230
Loc: Australia
Joel
I am simply throwing you a lifeline.
weather you swim for it or not is your choice

Nathan


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#272696 - 01/26/09 10:05 AM Re: Abandoned [Re: nathan555]
joelRT Offline
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Registered: 09/11/08
Posts: 1357
Loc: Québec, Canada
.

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#272701 - 01/26/09 10:23 AM Re: Abandoned [Re: joelRT]
nathan555 Offline


Registered: 01/06/09
Posts: 230
Loc: Australia
no Joel
you have to win
if you loose I loose

go for it man and you fucking win

Nathan


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#272877 - 01/27/09 11:45 AM Re: Abandoned [Re: nathan555]
lars3229 Offline
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Registered: 12/03/08
Posts: 800
Loc: Iowa
Wow, not exactly what I expected when I posted this poem... But an interesting discussion nonetheless.

Thanks for the comments all.

lars

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You may trod me
in the very dirt
But still,
like dust,
I'll rise.

-Maya Angelou

"I quite often remember to forget these sorts of things."
-Winnie the Pooh, The Tigger Movie

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