First off, welcome back! It's good that you're here. I'm sorry that you need to be of course, but given the need it's that you're back.
I'm getting sick just thinking about it. I guess I just need to be reassured by someone who understands the situation that everything is alright now and that he can't hurt me now.
Isn't this the crux of the matter? Even though he's no longer touching you, he is still hurting you, isn't he? Every time you think about it, every time the memories come to you unbidden, he's hurting you, isn't he?
CSA is not something that we can overcome or vanquish on our own. Many of us, yes me too, have tried and all have failed.
The guys of MS are all here for you and we will certainly offer you anything that we may have to give. That being said, if you are not already doing so, please consider professional help as well.