Once again, wonderful to see and have yet more resources for support, from someone who understands. It can't be anything but good, to have as many of us as vocal and proactive as possible; the overriding theme (which crtainly applied to me upon stumbling across MS) which strikes me, is how relieved newcomers are to realize they aren't alone...
I'd be lying if i said i didn't still have a long way to go, but at least today i understand that (for myself, at least) it's important to attempt to maintain a clear vision of "the balancing act" of realism; one the one hand, i can be far crueller and unforgiving, of the person i happen to be today- yet also leap instantaneously, emotionally speaking, to a position of sourness, bitterness, self-righteousness, and "professional victimhood" which helps no one, especially myself. It can be a tangled knot, indeed; but thanks to the help i've found here, i no longer feel like my only options are to ignore it entirely, or to choose an ultimately unsatisfactory Gordian approach....
We must be gentle, yet firm, with ourselves i think.
Give sorrow words: the grief that does not speak
Whispers the o'er-fraught heart and bids it break.
-William Shakespeare, Macbeth, Act IV, Sc. III