First, I want to welcome you to M/S.
Second, I want to tell you that you did nothing wrong and the shame you carry is your mothers and not yours.
You were a child who was abused by his mother for her own twisted needs. You are not at fault. God knows all things and he truely knows that you are not at responsible for what took place.
If there are any sins to be judged in what happen to you they belong to your mother.
Heal well and best wishs.
To own one's shadow is the highest moral act of a human.
"IT ought never be forgotten that the past is the parent of the future" John C. Calhoun
WOR Alumni Sequoia 2009