"You are going to make some one a good wife some day," he said. I remember thinking that was a compliment when I was very young.
After asking "why?" for too many years, I guess I am resigned to consider that...the statement alone, is enough of an indictment, when placed into the context of having been said before during or after any adult rapes a three or four year old.
The next logical step might be to consider that everything he said was tempered by his own selfish desires and fears. Because I just cannot imagine the huge amount of rationalization necessary to do it...to hurt so much, then, come back and do it again and again.
How reliable is any information when it's only purpose is to manipulate, coerce? And, what does it suggest about any individual...how much strength does it take, courage does it take, how "big of a man" do you have to be to fool a three year old?
I guess, now, it isn't, "What was he thinking?" but, more likely, "How was he thinking?" that I think about now. And, as I consider that, I find compassion for the little three year old that was fooled so completely, wanted to believe so much.
The hard part has always been, maybe...every dog can bite but, will every dog bite? As you hold out your hand again and, take that risk...
checkin out for a few weeks...