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#263426 - 11/23/08 02:07 PM Beyond Porn
sb48 Offline
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Registered: 03/26/06
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I struggle with porn. I have since collage. I was sexually abused by my mother. I was impotent until I used porn to bulldozed through. I fantasied my way to orgasm. But I have never known anything else. I am married now to a very loving wife. She is my best friend. (But she has a history of her own that she struggles with) I want a different sexual experience now. I see a therapist who tells me about sexual intimacy and that it is possible. I want to move away from porn and the quest for orgasm and find something deeper. I had no role models for this. My parents hated each other but would still fuck each other. I don't find examples of intimate sex in our society. I see people who seem intimate and happy but it is like a kept secret. We can learn all we want about pron but not healthy sex.

My wife and I stopped having sex. We felt uncomfortable with our hardcore sexual experiences and now we have fear taking the next step. I find it very difficult to give up porn when there is nothing to replace it. It's like stepping off a cliff not knowing if anything is there. It has been a crutch for so long. I am stuck in this endless loop. I can give it up for a while and then like a skip in a record I revert back to old habits.

I have hope that there is much more out there. I hope someday I uncover this well kept secret of intimate loving sex and it draws me in instead of porn.


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#263446 - 11/23/08 04:13 PM Re: Beyond Porn [Re: sb48]
Ken Singer, LCSW Offline
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Sounds like you might benefit from a certified sex therapy counselor. They are listed in an organization called AASECT (American Association of Sexuality Counselors and Therapists). You can find someone near you on their home page:
http://www.aasect.org/default.asp

No sense giving up what you have if it can be improved.


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#263447 - 11/23/08 04:17 PM Re: Beyond Porn [Re: sb48]
Sans Logos Offline
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Loc: in my own world in pittsburgh,...
hey sb48 i see you have not been around for a while. did you know that just recently the site started a new forum called survivors of female abuse?

there may not be anything right there at the moment about this particular topic, since it is a newer forum, but this topic might be great over there, since you are dealing with issues specifically related to abuse by your mother.

also, in the past several months there have been good general discussions about porn, but to my memory they don't specifically address enhancing the qualities of sexual relations in partnerships. but you can check them out and see if you find any inspiration there.

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there are some to start with, but you can so a search for some other topics if you like.

good luck,

ron

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#263460 - 11/23/08 04:58 PM Re: Beyond Porn [Re: Sans Logos]
Stretch73 Offline
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Registered: 06/27/08
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Loc: Sea Isle City, NJ
I'm not a big fan of porn. When I see it, I always wish I was involved in the situation which it depicts, so I'd rather not look at it, because I know I'll never have that really hot guy. LOL Other than that, I don't really have much of a problem with porn, unless it's not depicting adult of course!

Chad likes his porn. He has a nice collection, and I'm very okay with that. I know he finds me more attracted than the porn and I don't believe it has ever affected our sexual relationship. However, I am not giving advice and making it out to seem like porn is a "good thing." If it's affecting sexual and emotional balance in your life, with the person you love, than obviously it's a problem. I don't get the "hardcore" thing either, but that's just me. I happen to enjoy nice "softcore" romantic sex. smile

I, personally, believe it comes down to who or what you think is more important. Would you trade you wife for the porn, or the porn for your wife?

Think about it!

Rich

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#263487 - 11/23/08 07:16 PM Re: Beyond Porn [Re: sb48]
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Registered: 09/11/08
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I can only reiterate what Ken has already put so well and to strongly urge to explore the possibilty. The role of the sex therapist is not so much to help you have better sex (oh, the media and it's lies) as much as it is to help individuals and couples explore what it is that is hampering healthy sexual expression and to discover ways of letting go of hurtfull practises and habits by REPLACING them with new and valadating ones.

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#263493 - 11/23/08 08:38 PM Re: Beyond Porn [Re: joelRT]
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Registered: 06/23/08
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Loc: washington
A sex councelor sounds like a great idea...!!!

Not a substitue, but to add to that, I liked everything Barry and Emily McCarthy have written on the subject.

My T mentioned a book called, "Concious Loving", (Have yet to research or check out) just another idea.


You're all I need (White Lion)

island

P.S. *Thumbs up* on sensuous massages with my partner...!!!



Edited by 1islandboy (11/23/08 08:46 PM)
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#263563 - 11/24/08 08:22 AM Re: Beyond Porn [Re: sb48]
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Registered: 11/14/08
Posts: 21
Loc: WV, USA
I used to use porn also until I got married. It was an obsession with me. When I married, I gave it up and we had a normal sexual relationship. But, somewhere along the line we stopped having sex. I am the one who doesn't want it. It hurts and confuses my wife even though she knows of my abuse. And recently some of my memories of the abuse came back, and again I feel myself drawn to porn. I don't understand it either.

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#263759 - 11/25/08 10:43 PM Re: Beyond Porn [Re: ceegee]
G5 Offline
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Loc: New Jersey
Struggle with it also. Actually brought the topic up with my T after ten years. I was quite embarrassed by it. I have been using it in a way as a fill in for a relationship.
I won't get hurt (or hurt them) in the way I have in the past. I satisfy my needs and I can explore some of my desires. At least that's what I thought.
The sexual release for me is anxiety driven......fear, desire, anger....whatever. One of the ways I could release this energy was through porn, because I couldn't and wouldn't allow any real relationship in my life. I could pursue anything I wanted sex wise through internet porn.....without hurting anyone...except myself.
I found that through my regular friendships with women could sort of satisfy my cognitive side....talks and the like. But I had almost become asexual around them, and some were confused....as was I.
Porn is not real. It's not a substitute for a relationship. It's not a place to hide and act out issues. Relying on it for me confused things and alienated me from the 'real' world and people around myself.
Part of my need for sex was the desire to 'prove' to myself and others that I wasn't what had been done to me and what I was made to do. It's almost like I was trying to 'right' a wrong with sex. I'm also very confused with intimacy. I have trouble dating because of this....because at some point sex will become involved....and I'll attach myself to her. Then she'll eventually become less and less satisfied with me (in my mind) and I'll begin to hide....shutting her out, stopping sexual intimacy with her.....and head back to porn for the release and self inflicted suffering. I shut down all my desires when it came to real life, but they could only be quelled so much and the desire was there but suppressed.....porn then became the sexual outlet and then almost an obsession.

Hmmm....the counselor idea is sounding like a good idea too.

This is one of the toughest things about my recovery...the intimacy and differentiating it with sex and anxiety......this part is really confusing.
But I'm working through it and someday.....

Chris
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#263761 - 11/25/08 11:34 PM Re: Beyond Porn [Re: G5]
joelRT Offline
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Registered: 09/11/08
Posts: 1357
Loc: Québec, Canada
Originally Posted By: G5
I have been using it in a way as a fill in for a relationship......I won't get hurt (or hurt them) in the way I have in the past. I satisfy my needs and I can explore some of my desires. At least that's what I thought.
The sexual release for me is anxiety driven......fear, desire, anger....whatever. One of the ways I could release this energy was through porn, because I couldn't and wouldn't allow any real relationship in my life.


This is me in a nutshell! I have SPD (social phobia disorder), and I virtually live the life of a shut-in. I go out only when absolutely necessary to run errands - and then get my ass home as quickly as possible. This is not a life! I have no social network and truly only two 3D friends. I go for days and days without seeing or speeking to another living, breathing person.

Porn for me is a very pale substitute for a genuine relationship - but for now, at least, it helps fill the gap somewhat and makes feel just alittle like I'm not connected to life.

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#263771 - 11/26/08 01:04 AM . [Re: joelRT]
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