Hi, Dusty, I sure know just where you are coming from, and how you feel. Here are a few sentences from the book Victims No Longer, by Mike Lew maybe it might help you. It has me and I'm 69yrs old. Here goes, Chapter 5, loss of childhood.As part of our recovery, it will be importaint to return to your childhood-not to make it right, but to understand what really happened and what was your actual role. You will in essance, be getting to know and befriend a little boy-yourself as a child. You have been carrying him inside you your entire life. And you haven't ever really understood him. Another line, You owe that child a lot, you know. If not for his courage and survival skills, you wouldn't be here. He deserves your reassurance. end of story. The way that I'm trying to come to terms in my case with little Peter, whom has gotten me to 69 yrs old, and has just within the last 4 plus months came up to the surface looking for help to get us back as one (boy & man) So I have sought help, I had stumbled onto this web site, I have found a home, I have found compassion, I have found understanding and love. I have bared the deepest part of my heart and soul to those on these pages, and thay have bared theirs also to me. It is very hard to get that boy back as those perpertrators of ours surely killed that little boy, in heart and soul, but right now it is up to me to get me and that little severely damaged boy the rest of the way. We must become one, we must go from victim- survivor for the rest of my life. I wish you well in finding young Dusty. I wish you well on your journey on that rocky road to recovery. I hope that this may be of some help to you. Hael well my friend.
Edited by petercorbett (11/22/08 02:02 AM)
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