Just after midnight I lost contact with him.. ..and I fear the worst. I've been in touch with the police.. but now I just have to wait and try to function with this overwhelming grief.

I just had to put that out there.. thanks for reading.

(((((Melancholy)))))

That is really terrible, I'm so, so, sorry... but you don't know anything for sure yet, so please don't give up hope just yet. You did the right thing by contacting the police.

Please take care of yourself. PM me if you like.

You'll both be in my thoughts. I really hope it'll all be ok.

I'm trying to hang onto that sliver of hope, but as the hours pass I'm less and less hopeful.

It's so difficult, so overwhelming.. I don't know what to do.

hi melancholy,

i'm afraid i don't have any wise words for you, but i wanted you to know that another person is with you and praying for you and your loved one, hoping to send you a little more strength to make it through such a gut wrenching situation.

love,
riz

Thank you Riz,

It's so difficult, and having to rely soley on police work isn't reassuring. I do not have any contact information for his family, so seems harder.. not having them to reach out to.

*supportive hug* my prayers are en route.

Thank you wes-b, they are very much appreciated.

melancholy,

how are you doing? any news? do you have any family or friends that know about this that can offer any support?

riz

I'm surviving, a wreck.. but I'm still here. I haven't heard anything, and I guess the cell phone on his battery finally gave out.. because all calls are just going directly to voicemail.

I've been on the phone with various police departments, but nothing solid.. and of course, since I'm not directly related they can't promise me any sort of response even if they do find something out.

The family knows of me, but I don't know if they know how to get in touch with me.. or if they even would.

I'm supposed to speak with a dectective tomorrow morning, so hopefully that yields some sort of hope.

Thank you for your concern riz.

I've been through what you're going through.
PM me if you'd like to.
Thinking of you.
SB

Thank you soapy bubbles, I'm heading to bed shortly.. but I may just PM you in the morning. I appreciate your thoughts.

Still nothing..

how's it going, melancholy?

riz

Just trying to get through each day. It seems the more information I try to find, the more confusing things seems. I don't really know what to think anymore.

Doing a lot of writing, to keep track of things.. and a lot of waiting and thinking.

I am unable to process this stuff alone. It is only in the reaching out to others that helps get me going in a healthy direction of recovery and hope. I am new here and in weeks It has changed

I don't know that anyone can process this type of situation on their own. I do have family and friends to turn to, and I think that's what is keeping me afloat right now.

All of the questions and serious lack of answers torment me daily. I'm scared that the initial shock is starting to wear off and I don't know what that's going to me for my mental wellbeing.

It's been just over a week.. 50 minutes and a week since I've last heard anything.

I just feel so numb.

I just got a phone call.. he's gone. My beautiful heart is gone.

I'm so sorry, Melancholy.

No words anyone can say will be enough. But it wasn't your fault. And please do whatever you need to take care of yourself and get support.

David

Dear Melancholy:

I have been following this for a while, and although I haven't wanted to barge in during a time of unbearable waiting, I would like now to let you know you have been in my thoughts, and hope that you have supports nearby. My heart goes out to you for your loss. Take care.

Jim

Thank you both, I appreciate the kind words.

The logical side of my mind understands some things, but it's so difficult to align the emotional side with it. The conflict is so remarkably difficult. Everything seems so surreal and so many things don't make sense.. it's difficult to discern true gut instinct from denial.

I'm grateful to the support I have from family, friends.. and you all here. Thank you so much.

Melancholy, that is just awful. So sorry.

I am so terribly sorry Melancholy. This is a horrible tragedy. Damn, I'm so sorry

Dear Mel,

I'm so, so sorry to hear this.

There are few words that I can offer, but I agree with what's been said before. As terrible as this is, please remember that this was *his* act, and not your fault.

Just know that you are in my thoughts.

(((((((Mel)))))))

Thank you all, even though your words don't change what's happened, they mean a lot to me.

Today I feel very flat, and I wonder if this is what acceptance feels like.

It truly is one day at a time.

My deepest sympathies.
If you ever need an ear, or just a shoulder, don't hesitate.