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#261640 - 11/14/08 05:33 PM The kid in me.......
Tinman Offline


Registered: 05/30/08
Posts: 359
Loc: Lake Forest, CA
I was a kid once, like any other kid
Because I could be just a kid
I can see in pictures before that night
That I was the kid I was meant to be

But one horrible, evil night, that changed
And I had to stop being the kid in me
In terror and and confusion come suddenly down
I had to stop being the kid in me

I learned so fast a way to survive
As long as I wasn't the kid in me
Minimize the hurt and keep him happy
Never let him see the kid in me

Others to protect, I am the oldest one
I cannot afford to be the kid in me
Watching, waiting for any sign
No time to be the kid in me

No one sees or no one cares
To see the hurt of the kid in me
Growing up too fast, before my time
I learned to silence the kid in me

Years have passed, the danger wanes
But I rarely hear the kid in me
I've survived and it takes all my strength
I don't have time for the kid in me

But though time has past and I am grown
I still hear his whisper, the kid in me
Maybe one day, but not today
He'll play once more, the kid in me

_________________________
Tinman
"I finally have my heart!"

To the perps: Don't worry about me coming after you. But you damn well better watch out for God! "Vengeance is mine", saith the Lord

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#261696 - 11/14/08 11:13 PM Re: The kid in me....... [Re: Tinman]
joelRT Offline
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Registered: 09/11/08
Posts: 1357
Loc: Québec, Canada
Paul,

I'm speechless - would you allow me to keep a copy of this?

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My Story 1
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The longest journey we take is to self-discovery

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#261828 - 11/15/08 08:49 PM Re: The kid in me....... [Re: Tinman]
michael banks Offline


Registered: 06/12/08
Posts: 1755
Loc: Mojave Desert, Ca
Paul,

I too was the oldest in of my siblings.
I can so relate to this part of your poem.

Others to protect, I am the oldest one
I cannot afford to be the kid in me
Watching, waiting for any sign
No time to be the kid in me

I can never remember a time that it was safe to be just a kid.
Never a time to be care free and just be me.
Also I got alot of insight into who you are.
Beautiful poem thanks for sharing it with us.

Mike


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To own one's shadow is the highest moral act of a human.
-Robert Johnson-

"IT ought never be forgotten that the past is the parent of the future" John C. Calhoun

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#262769 - 11/19/08 09:27 PM Re: The kid in me....... [Re: michael banks]
Tinman Offline


Registered: 05/30/08
Posts: 359
Loc: Lake Forest, CA
The poems I post here are meant to encourage or inform. And you are ALWAYS free to use them in whatever way helps you. So, of course, if one of these means something, by all means copy it!!!

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Tinman
"I finally have my heart!"

To the perps: Don't worry about me coming after you. But you damn well better watch out for God! "Vengeance is mine", saith the Lord

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#263243 - 11/22/08 07:10 PM Re: The kid in me....... [Re: Tinman]
roadrunner Offline
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Registered: 05/02/05
Posts: 22045
Loc: Carlisle, PA
Paul,

Originally Posted By: Tinman
But though time has past and I am grown
I still hear his whisper, the kid in me
Maybe one day, but not today
He'll play once more, the kid in me

He will indeed. You are doing the hard work, and you're doing it right.

Much love,
Larry

_________________________
Nobody living can ever stop me
As I go walking my freedom highway.
Nobody living can make me turn back:
This land was made for you and me.
(Woody Guthrie)

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#263286 - 11/22/08 09:42 PM Re: The kid in me....... [Re: roadrunner]
Tinman Offline


Registered: 05/30/08
Posts: 359
Loc: Lake Forest, CA
Thanks, Larry. Just doesn't seem like it today.

_________________________
Tinman
"I finally have my heart!"

To the perps: Don't worry about me coming after you. But you damn well better watch out for God! "Vengeance is mine", saith the Lord

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#263296 - 11/22/08 10:45 PM Re: The kid in me....... [Re: Tinman]
roadrunner Offline
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Registered: 05/02/05
Posts: 22045
Loc: Carlisle, PA
Paul,

It rarely does. I so often have looked back at times when I felt I was really struggling, and by hindsight I could see I had been doing so many things that would make the tangible progress possible. A lot of our most important work can feel very frustrating and fruitless at the time we're doing it.

Much love,
Larry

_________________________
Nobody living can ever stop me
As I go walking my freedom highway.
Nobody living can make me turn back:
This land was made for you and me.
(Woody Guthrie)

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