glad to see you are still around. I am blessed by the ladies who share here on MS.
Far be it for me to tell you what to do; my best thinking is what got me to my bottom 2 years ago :-) I will share what my experience is. When I let go of what I want then the miracles can flow forth. When I was separated I just wanted my life back and could not imagine anything else. As I progressed in my healing I began to pray for whatever was best for everyone; my wife, our children and myself. At first I resisted this prayer... over time I began to accept it and eventually truly meant it. --I was invited back home-- Life is surely not perfect... it's real. Heck, living with a survivor is not bowl of cherries.
There was a post a while back with a gem that I will repeat and drop the link to. I pray to live this a little better each day.
A very, very smart ole lady, at a workshop I did once, told me that you only have to do three things.
Tell the truth and,
let go of your attachment to the outcome.
Love and hope, Wes
Happy to be a recovering survivor. :-)
Continuing to meet more of my fellows as I "Trudge the Road of Happy Destiny". My Story, 1st pass