Its ok. I do not believe in the god -sorry. I believe in more of the devil as there is so much evil in this world.
If there is a god then "he" if it is a he, abandoned the world and left it to is own fate, and if god does exist then i hate god. I am so full of hatred and anger.
I hate my own existance. i do not feel human, feel dirty and unclean all the time - my blood is toxic to others. not even god can help.
you dont see me. i am not really here. Its my fault.. all of it. I am to blame and no one else.